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moonchild
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I watched Oprah Monday (yesterday) and saw the most horrifying, most sickening documentary ever. It was so sad, and so traumatic...it was about the Democratic Republic of The Congo..and the women that live there. The things these women go through, every single day of their lives. These women are raped and beaten, and live in fear. One women was raped by more then 10 men at one time and after they beat her, they raped both of her daughters, and made her husband watch. How sick is that? People are unbelievable these days. It made me really sick to my stomach that these women are ignored, that the situation over there gets no help whatsoever. Different militia groups attack and fight through the villages of the innocent and thousands die every year. Back in 1994, more then 1 million innocent lives were massacred in the fight between the guerillas. That's horrific... and to think society turns a blind eye to these people...and Oprah rarely ever does it, but she pulled the race card on this one. And she was so right for doing so..because it's true..this is Africa. People have the mindset that the individuals over there are savages anyways...so why not let them find their own "animalistic" wars. People don't look into helping Africa, besides for AIDS, and that's because AIDS effects the WORLD in masses..whereas no one in America is directly effected with this situation..so it's not as important. America looks to jump on any heroic effort it can...take the tsunami for example..not saying the people who've perished and who have suffered there do not deserve attention and support, of course they do. But the Bush administration sucked every bit of "look at us we're helping out" and even made statements like "maybe the view on America will change when others see our commitment to this effort"....so what...you're in this to make you guys look better? What happened to doing this with heart and dedication..hoping to really touch people and effect a mass? Not making yourself look good..Selfishness..that's all it is. And the American people are not educated enough on the severity or even what the hell is going on in these places. People will be shown not even 30 seconds of a commercial on an effort to possibly help these people...and turn around from the TV and go out and get some Taco Bell or other luxury we Americans have the ability to enjoy. I for one..donated $45 of my own money this morning to the cause..It's really all I have but it's something. If you'd like to donate visit : www.womenforwomen.org . Even if it's a small amount...it's something for the people over there, who at the moment only survive on 80 cents a day.. Another thing on my mind..well..another "issue"...lol Love. Maybe I think too hard after certain things happen...maybe I even question too much..but each and everything I get myself into..I get pickier, and find myself becoming selective. I guess you can call me a hopeless romantic..I fall fast..and hard..and end up losing what I thought I had. Relationships have sort of become illusions to me...they seem to be there one moment, and before I can understand what's going on, or what I'm in it for, it's gone. Not to say I can never make up my mind or I'm unfaithful..I'm most definately not. I'm the type..If I'm with you, I'm with only you.Period. No if's, and's, or buts about it. What I think is going on...I compare everything to those 4 years of my life I spent with one person...4 years that I thought were immaculate..and really weren't. REALLY, weren't. But we won't get into that..the point of bringing it up is, it kind of made me speculate when I did get into a relationship afterwards..y'know what I mean? The old, "What if ?" I even know, you can't live like that, you can't carry old baggage into something new...you just can't live like that. But it always seems to make it's way back into my mind. I guess I really haven't had that "appreciation" rock there...it was never really made clear in post relationships..that's what I think I fear.. If I don't feel appreciated enough? Because eventually everything will fall apart and you wonder if the love was ever really there?..was the connection real?..etc. Hell, you might even blame yourself for being "blind". I hate to think about things like that..because it's truly a burden...and it ruins things...I still have time to work on my being open-minded I guess.. That's a New Year's Resolution...staying open-minded, and becoming more open-minded. lol! thank God bc I am sore from shoveling all that damn snow anyways...they made me shovel this pile of snow taller then me -__- and a plow came by and pushed it all back in place. i was pissed..so i went inside. damn township plows.. *turns on "dangerously in love"* how sweet is that song? ::sigh:: beautifully written too.. baby i love you you are my life my happiest moments were imcomplete if you werent by my side youre my relation and connection to the sun with you next me theres no darkness i cant overcome you are my rain drops i am the seed with you and God whos my sunlight I'm blooming Grown so beautifully baby I'm so proud Proud to be your girl you make the confusion go all away from this cold and misty world.. i am in love with you, you set me free i can't do this thing called life without you here with me cause im dangerously in love with you i'll never leave just keep loving me the way i love you loving me.. and i know you love me love me for who i am cause years before i became who i am baby you were my man i know it aint easy, easy loving me but i appreciate your love and dedication from you to me and later on in my destiny i see myself having your child i see myself being your wife and i see my whole future in your eyes the thought of all my love for you sometimes makes me wanna cry i realized all my blessings im grateful to have you by my side... everytime I see your face my heart smiles everytime it feels so good it hurts sometimes created in this world to love to hold to feel to breathe to live you dangerously in love... Whew! that song is amazing. feeling like that is amazing too...not everything works out tho..hm..in the end youre left to forget, and move on with life. That's what life is all about right? Getting up, getting over, andwalking straight through to a new you. It always seems as if there's an obstacle though..of course..they teach you a thing or two when you confront it..but what do you do when the obstacle is worth getting through..but you're tired of climbing? Sit back and let it flow? Or do you keep a persistant attitude? Somethings I'll just never figure out..I've seemed to re-think this question lately... : / That would help my Chemistry grade..I have to admit though..I got a 98 on my test I took Friday..what! It was on some new thing we did on acids? But I did really good and that should atleast boost me up three grades hopefully to a C-. As of now that's my only class that's low. I got a an A- in History, A in Spanish and B- in Math..suprisingly. lol Atleast...before finals..my math grade is a B-..oh well..final can't bring me down more then a C. Y'know what I watched last night..this 20/20 special with Latoya Jackson.. her exhusband really beat the mess out of her! I felt so bad for her..not only did he beat her he locked her in closets and shit and if she didn't do what he said, he threatened to kill Michael and Janet. -_- What nerve..! He wouldve had a gang of folks hunting his ass down if people knew. lol Watching it gave me the urge to go burn his shit down..just to dust.. The things people will do for attention and popularity in press..hmph! Anyways...I aint got nothin to say anymore.lol w/l |
