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moonchild
 lover.friend.daughter.sister.jewelry designer. student of life.creative.writer.cancer. native new yorker.residing in new jersey. Instagram
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Right into my pillow. One of those stress relieving screams. You guys! I am so..I don't know the word..um, hopeless? Yeah I guess that'll do. I'm feeling sorry for myself! I feel so stupid for feeling the way I do..I mean, stupid because I brought my issue upon myself. I'm the one who asked for a "break"...Hell, I'm the one who thought it'd be good. I guess I lied. That, or I'm just blind and lonely. I don't know, but what I do know is that I miss sooo much. Most, from awhile back, but still. I miss him. I feel it was unfortunate for things to go the way they did, for everything to come down to this. But when I say and think all of that, I kind of feel like I'm making excuses for my own loneliness. Not to object my feelings oor anything but I get so confused when I find myself thinking about him and, yes, wanting to see him and be able to hug him and laugh with him, and think that, well, "Shannon, you did this to yourself, deal with it." Maybe I don't need a break? Maybe it was just something I needed to get over personally. Or maybe I'm just in a getting over process? I don't know! Shit, I'll take any advice I can get my dudes. OK! So PLEASSSSE. Let a btch know! ANYYTHIIIING! Sigh Why is this shit so hard? I'll never know. I'm only 18..I have a great deal to learn I guess.. :( Song: Goodbyes - Kelis |