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moonchild
 lover.friend.daughter.sister.jewelry designer. student of life.creative.writer.cancer. native new yorker.residing in new jersey. Instagram
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SO WHAT! I like this one better anyways. Color can brighten ANYONE'S day! So maybe I'm brightening yours. GET ME SO EXCITEDDD I'M HOT COME ON SO READY READY AND ILL OPEN MY SPOT FOR YOU ANYTIME THAT YOU WANT ME TO... LA LA LA LA Yeah I'm still on the So Excited tip...but um..if there's an issue..  HERE'S A TISSUE! Get over it! =) Everything's so right... Let's dip up out of here.. Long hair dont care! -Llyod feat. Weezy Baby..Please! Say the baby! Love him<3 =) But yo, listen up..I'm real mad. Why Janet's new myspace video messed up? Why? Psh- Anyways. I went shopping yesterday with motherrrrr. Yessir! Got some cute thingssss. Y'know just a couple of shirts, a black zip up (it's cute!) that has "Free Love" on the back, a sweater-type shirt with these designs on the front, I dunno it's good to wear with my black leggings. Woo! What else I get? Uhm..I was going to get this other zip up sweater thing but that mess was $20 and i was NOT worth a $20 bill, OK? Yeah, OK so I'm cheap but um... I HAVE NO JOB RIGHT NOW. If I was making a load of money, maybe I would've considered it, but um no, not right now. The newly re-fabulized Forever 21 stays my dwelling. Cheap clothes, cheap accessories, and if you take care of them THEY'LL LAST! So for all of those people complaining- "Oh, my shirts ripped, my necklace broke"- blah blah. Well maybe if you got the right size, washed it right, didn't walk into thorn bushes or roll down a hill in them, or wear the accessories in the jungle, or get them caught on nonsense objects because you can't walk right, THEN THERE WOULDN'T BE ANY COMPLAINTS! ALRIIIGHT? Nah let me stop, I know their shit is cheap. LMFAO. Forreal though, that store DOES get me mad sometimes. How come I go in the dressing rooms and see these XXL women, stealing the cute clothes in MY size. If you don't know me, I'm 5'3" and half..Smedium in shirts, size 1 or 2 in jeans // 27 in European sizes- and um..these bigger heffers are squeezing their junk in these clothes. Not cute ok. I have nothing against heavier people but you don't have to lie to yourself OK? Please. Crack is wack! In every sense! What-ever! OVER IT! So about my math class today. I'm in stupid ASS people math, OK? Like- really...the most retarted people are in this class and how I got in there? I haven't the slightest clue. I mean I know I'm special ed when it comes to math, but um HELLO! I am not that dumb. We did this group activity today where we worked on this assignment with another person and I had my girl Lashae with me and we're done before damn near everyone. We both wonder why we're in this class...so yeah- my professor starts calling on people to answer these problems (Mind you, this is addition, subtraction, standard form, multiplication, etc STUPID!) and one kid gets chosen to give the answer to this multiplication problem. WHY!..just WHY!? does he answer: 39,411012 WHAT?! let me spell out how he SAID that, ok?? He was like, thirty nine thousand, four hundred one hundred ten thousand twelve.........OK....WHAT THE FUCK!? Seriously, MY DUDE...SERIOUSLY. Go HOME! Me and Lashae were like...O M G! NO!!!!That was it! I was so through with it like Destiny's Child. OK? UGH! We were so insulted to be in such a class at that point. We did the work and sat there and looked at the wall. That shit was just NOT NECESSARY! No wonder America is named one of the dumbest countries in the WORLD. EDUCATON MY PEOPLE, GET IT!!!!!! :exhales: Sorry, but that shit pissed me off..really. Hmm.... I feel my indecisiveness kicking in...I think I want to change my layout again. Y'know this is giving a fall/autumn feeling and um - HATE IT! Spring and summer are my thing. Summer especially- *my birthday hint hint* So I guess I'm going to shut up now and go looking for a new layout. toodles my loves<3 Song: After Party - Koffee Brown TAKING IT BACKK! Yo! It's snowingggg! I'm happy about it right now, but I know come morning I am going to be MAD if it ain't melt by the time I want to go out! Alriiiiiiiight. Okay, I don't want to write anymore. Let me get back to watching this re-run of "I Love New York"..this crazy bitch! Ciao Ciao.. Song: Nice & Slow - Usher so i just got in about..two hours ago. me & steph went outt-took over new jersey. what! nah let me stop lying! we just went to the mall; we saw latif- he is a damn trip. telling us the drama that is going on in the high school; yknow, who is fighting this one because she is talking shit, who got jumped by somebodys cousins, and who is pregnant and what not. you know something, i thought that school was a mess last year when i was a senior but chiiiile! oh my goodness. them children are wild! they really out did everyone this year. but what-ever! so over it. after our mall excursion we went to PANERA BREAD our main spot. usually i get some soup and a sandwich but since my mother made some amazing chicken soup, i only had, well, more soup. i make no sense a lot of the times..but anyways. steph had this soda called "Fu Fu Berry" ..omg. FLY! it was so good. it went along with our crazy ass conversation about how G it would be when Hilary Clinton becomes President on the United States. Because You All KNOW She Will Be ! OK! We were saying how her inauguration ceremony is going to have rappers and shit...how when they introduce her the intrumental to B.I.G.'s "Notorious" will be playing in the background and a choir is going to sing, "No-No-Notorious!" and she's going to be standing there with her arms folded real hood-like. Ah! I was dying! We're stupid, we know but it was a fun conversation. then we picked up Steph's nephew from his friends house and we went to Elizabeth to get some cheap ass candy. Yeah, we're dumb! We drove all the way over there for candy but yo, let me tell you. Even though a man outside asked us if we had some rock, I got 5 packets of Cry Babys and two packets of Tongue Splashers- oh! and a Ring Pop for TWO DOLLARS! Craziness! My mouth kinda hurts now from eating two packets of those Cry Babys, but whatever! I haven't had those since I was like, 5 years old on my block in Staten Island. Memoriesssssss....! Then..we went to visit Steph's friend who looks like Lloyd. We decided after that to go bowling..but I was not prepared (I had pumps on, so I had to go home and get socks. You know I have to be cute..gosh!) Then we picked up her other friend from the train and went to some bootleg ass cosmic bowling in Edison where this bitch lady wnted us to pay $40 to play a game of bowling! BALLS! OK! No way in the real world, am I, Shannon Christine ****, paying $40. No, just not happening. Then somehow, it ended up being $30 and I only agreed to put $10 in and we were fine. Now, I don't bowl and I haven't in a long ass time..but! I kicked ass! Whooo! I had strike after strike, like nobodys business! But yeah, let me stop bragging about my luck! On to other things...right now I'm just in my room. I watched RENT with my cousins when I came home. Lord I haven't seen that movie in a minute. & I'm kind of...thinking about Eddie. I don't know why, but today he's been on my mind. I know he is having issues with his health and what not- which by the way, I still don't know what they are, but yeah, I don't know. The whole break-up didn't really affect me like everyone else thought it would because I kind of prepared myself for it, I guess to save-face. Just recently, the past day or so, he's been prominent in my mind; this worried and/or sympathetic feeling comes over me. I don't feel like I should feel bad, even though someone has told me they feel bad for him. Then again, that person was just meddling and being malicious with her words. (Kick rocks, please!) Everyone else just expected all of this, not this soon, but they all knew it was coming. Which I find horrible. It's terrible when all your friends have to tell you, "I can't believe you two are together.." or "It's not even like you guys are even remotely attracted to each other.." and I've gotten, "What do you want out of it? Because you're not happy." and the "Does he even like you?" They all hurt. Though those comments didn't decide my resulting action, they definately back up why I did finally just call it quits and ask for my space. But I'll admit, I miss that love and that connection. I live for it, I really do. Affection means the world to me. But I guess it just wasn't meant to be at this point in time. I felt a big void between us and I couldn't fill it...because it grew too wide. I did feel responsibilty for a great deal of it at first, then I pointed the finger..now I can understand why it was both of us and how the distance really came upon in a way, by itself. oh well... i'm just glad we are still talking a little. I know he probably doesn't even want to, though he says he understands what happened. I just feel he blames himself, too much. Despite the shit I've said, it is not all him like I stated before. Hopefully, the time will clear both of our heads and let us focus a little on ourselves for the time being. Afterall, you have to love & know yourself, in order to love & know someone else. That's it for me today ninjas! Stay up. ciao ciao! Song: Lost Without U - Robin Thicke, my husband; so jump off you ugly critters! sorry, but I just had to get that out of my system.. >_< what the fuck!? Yeah, yeah. I should have been reading my damn U.S. State and Local Gov't book..I gotta read Chapter One..which is like- psh. 20 damn pages. I really need to learn how to read and soak in what it is I'm looking at. I mean, yeah, it's kinda late to try and fix that..I'm already in college...egg on my face! & I want to know why in the world I took that class..do I care about New Jersey? No. Do I care that we're separated into districts and townships, blah blah. NO! But I have to go to a damn municipal meeting for a paper in the class. How am I gonna look walking into a public town meeting with all them old people 80 and over, trying to get laws passed so the speed limit is changed to 5 mph. :shakes head: over it!! ugh @ my stupid ass. it is 4am and I wonder why I can't get up to go to class. oh well..i'll deal with it like always do. y'know..I went through some of the past posts here and shiiiiiiiiiiiiit! things change SO much in such a short period of time. hmph. and i'm not just talking about the post beneath this, but way, way, back.. I don't think you guys can go back as far as I did. On my dashboard page where all my posts are...it dates back to June 2005. Like I had a life then..but goodness, it was an interesting read. & let me stop..I don't even have a life now. haha. - I really need a hobby of some sort.. I went through everything.. I already collected something, played softball, basketball, and gymnastics, was an art fien for a minute, wrote tremendously for two or three years, and i just started making collages, but since I'm back home I have stopped because there's no more room on my walls to tape them up. ha. Oh well, I'll find something to do with myself..I just recently have this feeling of....uselessness. My friends say it's because of breaking up with Eddie, but I have my reasons for not fully believing that. But, there is a new void in my life, I will admit that; a pretty big void..if you ask me. That's something new...something I need to learn to cope with; for now. I'll end this here... niiite bitches! Song: Last Night - Diddy feat. Keyshia Ghetto Cole! Yeah..I dunno...shit is s messed up lately and i really don't/didn't have much to say since October. Depressing right? Yes, I know. But what else is new with an 18 who transferred colleges and broke up with her boyfriend. I'll be the first to admit it. I am the worst at decision-making and knowing the difference between what I want and what I need. In the words of my secret passionate slutty lover, Cody: "Girl, Boo! --->" Yeah, thanks for your uplifting talks and shit and stuff. Anywho- This is a new year...and I've had this nonsense, tell-all blog since I don't know when...long enough, let's just say that. So, with that said it's time to switch it up. With all of these changes in my life, including cutting 9 inches of my hair..I'm going to start this shit off right. Nice, smooth, clean slate...and whoever the hell cares, will be able to read about it! So for the next couple of days or maybe tonight..I'll be changing/making a new layout and attempting to keep up with posts. Y'know, that is inbetween going to classes, finding a new job, and enrolling my "i'm lazy, all I want to do is sleep and eat when I'm bored" self, in a gym. ( & No I don't think I'm fat..I just need energy back in my life. Lorddd knows I'd love some evergy, cause only He knows there's been a big gap in my life...) So yeah, I'll shut up now. toodles, bitches! Song: "So Excited" - Janet. Don't act like you don't know! OK! |