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 So, this has been me for the past two days...studying. This picture here shows me writing my three government essays to study for the exam I have later today. It's quite easy, even though the amount of words on the paper looks intimidating. Don't worry. I plan to ace this. & BTW the whole "scare" last night with the "Early Warning Notice" was a mistake! Yessir! I talked to my teacher today and it wasn't meant to be sent to my email. What damn mistake! OK! She is lucky. I really felt like burning that bitch doowwn! Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit! Oh and tell me why in my math class this little group of people..these three guys and this SLOW ass girl, were mad excited when I walked in class. ?????? I was late..because I didn't feel well this morning and I walked in and she turns around to one kid and goes "Omg there she isss!" and they were all talking amongst themselves. I knew it was about me..they kept looking at me. Class went on blah blah. I spent most of the time talking to my friend Lashae. Then professor took attendance to see who was missing and when she called my name, that girl from before goes "Ohh Shannon is her name..yeaaah" to the kid behind her. And they kept looking at me the rest of the class...weird. So class ends..I give a couple papers to my professors and I walk out..two of them guys who were lookin, were waiting for me outside. One walks up to me and goes "Hey Shannonnn...sry bout that look I gave you in class it was kinda weird" I was like "Eh no worries..its alright" as I called Steph up. Then he goes "So where you fromm?" I told him and he goes "Ah cool..see you 'round..next class and stuff.." How corny.Ew. That story makes me want to go and study some more.. I'll ttyl. Song: You Belong To Me - Carly Simon I just got an e-mail from my math professor- it's an Early Warning Notice about me failing. What the hell! I've been absent twice, (and there is no attendance rules @ Middlesex) made up the work, never missed anything important- did all my homework. I swear..everytime something is going great, some stupid shit happens. All the time. Y'know..I am really really trying to get all A's this semester- every semester from now on..and it's like, "No, you can't have that." Everytime I try. & Right now, I have an A in every single class, but math- according to this notice. I'm so upset...I gave up a lot of shit to concentrate on school too. I basically have no life because I want to be so focused. I have nothing...and look..I get a failing notice. It doesn't make any sense.. I mean just the other day, I was at my brother's apartment with my parents- we stopped by for a little. And my brother asked how I was doing in school and whatnot, and before I could even say anything my parents had to chime in and go, "She does nothing..she has no life. She needs to get a life and a job.." Like..OK. What the fuck? They want me to get a life and go out, they want me to get a job, and they want me to get all As. So yeah, I'm going to get a job and start making plans. So when I get that job and work 5-10 all the time..and go out on my days off and on the weekends, you want me to get straight As? Please. I did that the first semester of senior year and ended up with two Cs, a B, and one A and that was in some stupid elective. And they weren't happy with that at all. But no they want it all again..but you know what? Sorry- I can't give you perfect. And just when I felt like I could accept really focusing on school instead of everything else I too, wanted for myself, getting kicked when I was down just helps me think that I'll amount to nothing. I'm just so confused..and I'm tired of getting so upset over it. And it's so quiet when things like this happen...which also upsets me. You do so much to give your ear to others and when you're hurting...nobody wants to hear it. What can I do.. Song: I Am Changing - Dreamgirls Soundtrack (Jennifer Hudson) Offended? Take this personal? Then it's probably about you. & If you are reading this, then you really need to stop running away from things other people or you, yourself tell you, you can't have. OK. Grow some balls. Seriously. You know exactly what the hell I am talking about; if you look at everything this way, everything will make a lot more sense. Cause I know you were a bit "confused". Whatever. Anyways, when you do get a clue- let me know because unlike some people, I did everything with the best intentions in my heart for shit to still be so damn stagnant. Period. Song - I Don't Wanna - Aaliyah (btw that's my version..boo-yah!) Anyhoot! I GOT TWO FUCKING TICKETS TONIGHT! Fuckin' police I swear. They were bored and ran my license at a red light and said I was uninsured and not registered. LIES!!!!!! I am registered and I am insured. I registered last month, and I'm under my parents insurance and my card says I'm insured. But according to the policewoman, "Our system says you're not" BOOOOOOOOOO in your face. Whatever- My dad is fighting it Monday morning. Egg on her face! Shout out to my girl Steph for sharing the experience with me. Cheaaa! Anywho- tonight was uneventful. I was bored most of the time until I decided to go to the mall- get a new shirt from H&M and a necklace to go with it. Then I got some Burger King and ate it down in Seawaren and looked at the ocean. Yeah..I was feeling a bit sappy sitting by the ocean by myself, ok...So what? Shit. Then I called up Steph and picked her up- we drove around a bit and decided to go to New Brunswick and search for a Starbucks. We found one eventually and we BUGGED out in Starbucks at 1230 AM. LOL We had mad fun actin' stupid. That caffiene really got to us. She was being stupd saying I'm Janet Jackson's love child from James DeBarge, that's why I'm so light skinned and I was in denial and mad because Janet don't claim me- when in actuality I was JUST mad because there is currently NO TOUR. But she said she learned from Sigmund Freud that I am mad at my real mother which is causing my anger. LMAO. Real retarded..lmao. But that is how we do. After that we DROVE to Fords and looked at this WEIRD ass 7 foot JESUS statue these people have on their front lawn. Now, we've seen it before, but it's been a while and we went to see it again tonight and these people put a CAPE on Jesus! A cape and a SILVER ICED OUT CROSS CHAIN around his neck. ROTF!!!! We were DYIN! We're gonna go back with my camera one day and I'll post the picture.. it's so weird and so hilarious. Then..what we do?... OH YEAH...I GOT PULLED OVER FOR NO REASON NEXT....BOUGHIE! Whatever law enforcement, OKAY? Whatever. I'm going to bed..I have to get up early and have breakfast in Midtown with the fammm. Toodles! Song- Cupid's Chokehold - Gym Class Heroes 1. Do you know anyone in Prison? My brother. 2. Have you ever logged onto a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush's myspace? Boyfriend...? 3. When is the last time you ate Peanut butter and jelly? When I was starving about...5 minutes ago. 5. Have you ever gotten naked at a party? No, and if I did I don't remember. 6. Name someone you miss. Um...no comment. 7. Are you named after one of your parents or grandparents? Hell no. 8. Who loves you? Everyone I hope. 9. Do you throw up gang signs? Unfortunately. 10. Have you ever broken a rib? No. 11. Would you rather be a girl or a guy? Girl, but I'd trade my insides...for obvious reasons. Fuck the cycle! REBEL! 12. Who is the most spoiled person you know? Some skank..let's not talk about her. 13. Would you rather have a million dollars or true love? Um..love because I know he's gonna be rich. 14. Have you ever had sex in church? Last time I was in church, I was 14..think about it. 15. Is your boyfriend/girlfriend a marine? Boyfriend...? 16. Do you watch the Grammy’s? Oh you mean the Freebies. Yes, I do...Don't ask why, because I don't know anymore. 17. Would you ever work for the border patrol? Yes..Illegal alien catching would be tight. 18. How would you describe your relationship? With myself?...Pretty fulfilling. 19. Would you rather date someone 2 years younger than you or older? OLDER! OK! NEXT --> 20. Have you ever had an eating disorder? Yeah, right. Me & Food run this bitch. Period. 21. Do you have a porn collection? I wish. 22. How many proms have you been to in your life? Sigh, One. Thanks for making me hate myself right now. 23. Have you ever been in a inter-racial relationship? Yes..shit is better when it's mixed- always. 24. Is your birthday on a holiday? Yes, on SHANNON'S DAY OF BIRTH. Only I get the day off though. 25. Are you old enough to vote? Yes. 26. Do you have any friends or family in the War right now? Um..they ain't really my friends...so NO. 27. Are you a vegetarian? Fuck no. Fuck PETA. Give me anything that grazes. Minus the African animals, horses, and goats. 28. Do you worry about global warming? Yes, I wonder when the fuck is it going to get warm HERE! 29. Do you like polar bears? YES! They're fluffy. 31. What kind of birth control do you use? Ugly guys. 32. What slang word do you call marijuana? Foo Foo 33. Are you an atheist? No.. 34. Did you lose your virginity to your neighbor? I don't really comment on my virginity- this thing is public and some people won't be able to handle the truth. ROTF. sigh 35. Do or did your childhood dreams come true? Yes, I finally saw a crazy talentless bitch beat a car with an umbrella!!! <3 CRAZY SPEARS! 36. Do you wear your sweetie's clothes? I don't share clothes bitch! I got my own! 37. What's your opinion on gold diggers? They're runnin' on my men. 38. Are you a country or city girl/boy? CITY bTCH! 39. Is your car a 2002 or higher? LOWer. 2000. 40. Do you floss daily? No the little people in my mouth clean my teeth for me. Anywho, I'm having mixed feelings lately. I think I have a crush on somebody. haha. I mean he's nice, he's older than I am.., and when he talks to me- he looks in my eyes and smiles and is- he just listens. He's interested in what I have to say, even if it's me reading notes that he missed. And well, I don't know him, but I don't know- he's just a nice person; pleasant. Here's the thing though, I don't think I can go any further than sitting next to him in class and chatting casually. I am so inbetween "No, I don't want to.." and "Well, maybe.." Basically, I'm saying that I'm curious I guess. I feel badly about it though, because well, I still have thoughts...about well you know. I just think somedays, I should really re-consider him, give him the chance that he may really take advantage of. It was just so much effort put into it for something that went well for such a short period of time. Very shor period of time when I really think about it...it was good before we even got together- was bad- was good for a short while- school came and it was all downhill from there. & I really wish I knew why and how...but I don't and that's what makes me also think, maybe it will never be as we thought it would be. Maybe I'm always going to be this idealistic figure to him, that he has to be altruistic to, in all the wrong ways. So in return, I don't feel like I should have any feelings or interest in anyone else really, until I really figure out where we stand. I don't know where we stand. I mean it's not like I've been galavanting around..I've been the exact opposite. But him? Who knows.. Ugh. I guess I have a great deal to try and work out with all of this. I just wish everything was how it was...when it was great.... Well, I have to get to my homework..I'll ttyl Song: I Don't Wanna - Aaliyah I don't know, but whatever! I'm going to bed after I finish this homemade chicken soup.Mmmm.. Song: Love 2 Love - Janet Jackson  Me and mother were in Target last night and she was like, "I didn't get you anything for Valentine's Day, you want that bag?" Um..YES! Forreal though. A bitch needed a new bag like Britney Spears needs a new life! It was only $40 too, compared to the SEXY DKNY bag I seen the other day for $325... :whistles: Yeah, I only look at them bags..and keep it moviing. Anywho I'm hongry! I'll ttyl. Song: Wonder Woman - Trey Songz Alright so Diane Lane is Constance and she's married to Richard Gere...I don't know his name I forogt..but they have a kid together. I think they said they were married for 11 years. But anyways, Constance isn't happy. Her husband owns an armored truck company and she's an auctioneer once in a while (she ain't never at her job) and her husband usually works late. Their sons 9th birthday is coming up and Constance goes into New York City for the day to buy party supplies etc and it just happens to be a very windy day, like knock over a grown woman winds. She's walking down the street in SoHo with her groceries, trying to catch a cab (how convenient none of the EMPTY taxis stop for her) and the wind knocks her into this foreign sexy ass man carrying books. She knocks him over, falls on him, all his books blow all over the city street and her party supplies are down in the Upper East Side by the time she realizes her groceries are all blown away. She cuts her knee in the fall and the sexy man happens to live right there and tells her to wait, that he'll get her a band-aid. Or, she can go up with him and clean it off herself. She goes up. Which leads to her finding out he's a smart, sexy foreigner, with a fine ass accent named Paul. She knows what she's capable of doing so she leaves after she cleans her knee. & basically she feels the need to go back. The first time she goes back she stays for like...3 minutes and leaves. The second time, she brings muffins and he asks her to dance to some African music and lord knows she is done. I would be... But she realizes what she's doing is wrong and jets out the place. Half a second later, she is back in the apartment saying she forgot her coat- Not. She quickly grabs Paul and he carries her to his bed and does all this amazing shit that drives her crazy in the head and she's in between being turned on and completely upset. It's so weird. And dumb bitch, she stops him and says they don't know what theyre doing. Then this is the BEST fucking part...he tells her to HIT him. Hit me...HIT ME! he says. Ah..I could only imagine if I was in that much heat and distress...and a man told me to just get it out by hitting him? The hell..where is MY Paul?! Anywho- she slaps and punches the shit out of him..bites him..blah blah..and they do their deed. HOTTTT. Then she is on the train home, half crying, half laughin (this bitch is so weird, I'm telling you) remembering what they were doing in his bed. Then after her daydream, she goes in the train bathroom and throws away her underwear. -dead- Ahh hahaha. So yeah, she starts lying to her husband saying she was at auctions trying to get his friends to buy stuff (LIE! & he starts suspecting after he asks his friend about it) and she tells him she has spa appointments etc. He catches her and shit by calling up the places and checking for her appointments. But in the meantime she's buying sexy lingerie and dressing real nice to go see Paul. One incident shes on her way to his apartment and runs into her friends and they make her go get coffee with them. She goes and calls him at the cafe and tells him to wait for her. Well! Men are impatient. He shows up and they get it done in the bathroom. CRAZY! Then she goes to his place after coffee and they do it again.. :faints: The next couple days go by, her husband hires a private investigator to follow her and take pictures blah blah. he follows them to some movie theater. Inside, the movie theater is EMPTY..how convenient...and they screw right in the center seat...omg.. They come out the movie and the guy takes pictures of them from behind a pole, POW! BUSTED! Her husband finds out, and by this time, Constance is feeling guilty and wants to end i all. She goes to his place to tell him and he gets mad, she gets mad they fight in the hall...and he throws her against the wall and they rip each others clothes off and do it for the last time. How hott is that?? So as shes leaving, her husband is outside the apartment, because he wants to confront Paul about Constance. He finally gets in the building and goes into Pauls apartment they start talking..basically, he goes crazy in the head after he finds out Constance gave Paul a snow globe that he gave her as a present (the family collects snow globes from different vacations theyve had) and he takes the snow globes and cracks him in the head with it. Paul is dead. Then he wraps him up in a rug, cleans the blood and throws his body in a dump. Cops never know he did it, but Constance finds out when she finds the snowglobe she gave Paul back in the living room. They agree to try and get through it all and they end up forgiving each other and live happily ever after. But shit, that movie is so crazy. lmao. Anyways I wanna show you guys the new BAG my mom got me for Valentine's Day! WHEN I GET BACK FROM CLASS.... Song: U Make Me - Macy Gray feat. Floetry Right now, I need to bury myself in my pillow..because this pillow is all I have. :( Hmph. If he ain't get it right by now, Let's scratch him off....! Girl, Yes! I know that's right. Tired ass guys these days..I swear. & Seriously, what is with dudes on Myspace messaging people saying, "So I was bored and came across your profile and you're mad pretty and hopefully, I'll be able to get to know you. You got AIM? Here's my sn : < > Get back at me". Um, No. I will not get back at you because if the illiterate retard READ my profile and seen that I am not on Myspace for relationships but friendships (aka talking to people who I ALREADY know). Shit, I am not trying to "talk" to nobody online. Egg on your face! & What about these other folks asking to meet in person? Never seen this person before, never heard they name..nothing..and poof. You get a message in your inbox talking about, "Yo ma..u maaad sexi i dink we shud meet fo sho. hurr my numba #### lemme kno wuss realli good witchu aiigh babi " Now WHAT IN THE HELL! Take it somewhere else...far from me. I am sorry, this may come off like I think I'm too good...but it isn't even like that. I done seen wayyyy too many Dateline episodes talking about these stupid ass females meeting these men online thinking "Oh yeah, he is 14 just like me; I saw his picture." Stupid, just real stupid. How did you get to 8th grade being that stupid? Then the man asks them to meet in some discrete place because he thinks "a quiet place would be better for us to talk" or some tacky bullshit like that, and the broad goes. And what happens next? THEY GO MCDONALDS AND SHARE A MCFLURRY! sike. The cute 14 year old boy with the dimples and the green eyes that she thought she was going to meet turns out to be a 45 year old man with a hairy chest looking like Chewbaca's brother, who throws her in his blacked out van, rapes her, beats her, and throws her stupid ass in a ditch on some interstate. Personally, I see my death in a totally different scene; in my bed at the tender age of 98 next to my young ass husband ( and I mean 28 years old! PIMP @ 98!! nah I'm kidding..). There should be a option on Myspace, if someone you don't like, or never want to hear from again messages you or requests you, you should be able to block their ass for eternity. Infact, I'm about to inquire about it with Tom. I talk to you guys later. <3 style="font-style: italic;">Ya'll didn't think I could bump like thiiiiiiiiiiiiiis! Song: Like This - Kelly feat. Eve I decided I didn't want to post an entry of self-pity. hmph. 002. How old are you? Eightteen. 003. What is the link to your website, blog, or myspace? this one... 004. Name? You already know.. 005. What do u think of our president? :BOOOOOOOOOO! 006. Whos ur fav comedian? I don't know.. 007. Fav internet service? I'm stealing my neighbors wireless :D 008. Fav tv channel? Um...VH1? I don't know.. 009. Fav radio station? 105.1 010. Posession u never leave without? My cellphone. 011. Person u can trust w/ anything? Ha...eh... 012. Friend u cant completely trust? Too many.. 013. Person u pretend to like or be friends w/? No one. 014. Fav nelly song? Dilemma..I guess. 015. Fav song? Too MANY! 016. Best slow song? Anytime, Anyplace / Lost Without U 017. Fav r&b song? Shut up!!! 018. Fav country song? Negative.. 019. Fav rap song? Uh..Juicy -BIG 020. Fav hip hop song? ugh.. 021. Fav punk/rock song? "Find A New Way" Young Love 022. Fav artist? Uh- Janet. Duh. 024. Fav 50 cent song? Um..No. 025. Fav eminem song? Again..No. 026. Fav simple plan song? I don't have one. 027. Fav jesse mccartney song? Boo. 028. Fav familiy member? Now that is wrong. 029. Dream pet? My dog Max, duh! He's my baby..though I would like an English Bulldog. 030. Family member u cant stand? Again...Wrong! 031. Best friends family member u cant stand? None. 032. Fav internet service? Didn't we cover this already? 033. Best cell service? VERIIIIIIIIIZON 034. How many exes do u have (need a number)? Three. 035. What do u believe bout god? God is good. 036. Would u ever consider that god is a woman? I dunno. 037. Least fav class? Math. Man...fuck numbers if they aren't on a paycheck. 038. Worst gift u ever received? A hat my aunt said Beyonce would wear. LIES!!! 039. Fav amusement park? Six Flags 040. Best place to buy something? Forever 21 041. Fav store? See above. 043. Fav place at the food court at mall? Chik-Fil-A! 044. Fav drink place at mall? Strawberry Smoothie from Haagen Daaz. 045. Person u could never take 2 to mall w/ u? Um... 046. Cracker or honky? What the hell... 047. Hot or humid? Give me both. 048. Hail or sleet? Sleet 049. Ice or rain? Rain 050. Station wagon or minivan? Mini Van 051. Freddy or jason? Fred 052. Place u never wanna visit? Jail. 053. If u could get married anywhere in the world and bill gates was payin where would u get married? Thailand. 054. Fav football team? GIANTSSSS 055. Least fav football team? THE EAGLES...crazy bitches.. 056. Color u hate? Yellow? I dunno.. 057. Something u would never wear? A leather catsuit..on anyday other than Halloween. 058. Something u would never eat or eat again? Tater Tots...ewwww 059. If u could eat something rare or exotic what would it be? Um...Brazilian Lobster 060. Would u befriend hannibal lector if he promised not 2 eat u? What the hell..no. 061. Name a person u would never wanna be in an elevator w/? Someone who smells. 062. Is this the best survey u ever took? No. 063. If no then y the hell r u still takin it? Boredom. 064. Fav movie u saw in theaters? DREAMGIRLSSSS! 065. Tutoring or failing? Failing...Yeah I know.. 066. Cp or honors? Honors 067. Dell or mac? Fuck Dell..OK? MAC! 068. Nextel or other? OTHER 069. Prepaid or pay as u go? PAYG 070. Razor or side kick? SIDEKICK FOR THE WIN BEETCHES! 071. Real world or gauntlet? Real World 072. Comedy or horror? Horror 073. Action or romace? Romance 074. Drama/ thriller or kid? Thriller 075. Fav comedy movie? Ever? Benchwarmers jut recently made me bust out laughing. & ELF! 076. Fav actor? Eddie Murphy, John Leguizamo, . 077. Fav actress? Julia Roberts, Cate Blanchett, Angela Basset 078. Brad or Vince? Vince 079. Angelina or Jen? Angelina 080. Tom or Usher? NONE 081. Depp or Bloom? Mm..Both. 082. Radcliffe or CMM? Chad 083. Fav horror movie? Seven, The Hole, Exorcist, The Abandoned..All those Horrorfest movies 084. Fav action movie? Sin City 085. Fav romance movie? THE NOTEBOOK! 086. Fav pointless movie? Anything with Will Ferrell, lol. 087. Something u will never get or achieve? Ew..that's mean. 088. Dream that will never come true? Screw you. All of them WILL! 089. Something u hope never happens to u? Serious Illness , Jail 090. Do u like the song Fly Away by Nelly? No 091. What color is ur fav pair of socks? White with a pink puma on them.lol 092. R u really a slob? Sometimes 093. What does ur school locker look like? I don't have a locker at college. 094. The teacher u cant stand? None. 095. Place u hate? Cemetery , Hospitals 096. Disney or six flags? Six Flags 097. Disney in CA or FL? FLORIIIDA 098. Queens or Bronx? My daddy was born in the Bronx 099. Place in NY u never wanna be at night alone? Central Park...shit is not cool! 100. Person u feel most protected around? My dad. 101. Person u feel would sell ur soul at walmart? Walmart buys souls? No wonder I don't go there. 102. Did this make u laugh at all? Um..NO! Maybe it was the chinese food or maybe it was just coming on itself..but ugh. I hate feeling this way. Oh well..what can you do. Good thing that came out of it was when my dad woke me up. He told me he got me tickets to see JOHN LEGEND!!! Y'know, my otherrr husband. I was so happy. <3 my daddy. You know what else? Growing Pains is that shit! I been watching almost every episode since they put it on Nick @ Nite on Monday. Love that show. I remember it used to be on Fox Family..like..8 years ago..wow..Damn. I didn't realize 1999 was that long ago. Anywho, that show is it. They have me dying. Oh, oh..see right now they're going to a live taping of the Cosby Show together. Ah...the 80's. I'm gonna keep watchin...ttyl. Song: Growing Pains Theme Song lmao. so it was valentines day yesterday. um, boo. i had a bad dream yesterday morning too. i was still w/ eddie and i was talking to him on the phone or something, and then some female came on the line talking to him saying "i'm waiting, eddie" and he was like "soon..I'll be there soon." Then started talking to me again. Like nothing happened. I woke up so mad. Then, my mother walked in and said there was a bunch of snow outside and I was quite happy I didn't have to go to classes. Woo! But ugh. Then I realized what day it was. Figures! But whatever, as long as it wasn't reality. Over it! So yeah, um Robin Thicke tickets @ Rutgers were sold out before my dude even got to the school. WTF! So my last hope is my mother's friends. I am PRAYING they can pull through on the complimentary tickets. LORD PLEASE!!! Speaking of tours..Janet hasn't released tour dates yet. BOOOOO! There are issues going on supposedly with promotors etc. I don't know but everything is so damn confusing. I don't know how she does it. At this point, I would've just said eff a tour, and took a couple years to myself. Shit been going on with her for awhile. A big, long break would be good for her I think. Then get a big plethora of promotions in a couple years to welcome her back. A BAM! Hit people over the head like PA DOW! Im Here. WHAT! Eh..I can dream LOL. Anywho, I should be doing my extra credit Health homework. Lord knows I want to get straight A's! Any extra credit, is good credit! I have to define a bunch of Psychological disorders... I bet I know a great deal about those... /ends sarcasm. I just hope that snow that were supposed to get tonight comes and class is cancelled again. LOL. I'm horrible I shouldnt be thinking that way.... Oh well. :D ttyl. Song: Promise Remix - Ciara feat. R. Kelly that is all. ttyl. song: shooter - robin thicke feat. lil wayne OK I'll be back..laterrr. omg it's 8:15 i need to hurry up and go out. somewhere..lol OH MY GOSSHHHHHH! I'm so effing EXCiTED! & My moms friend, her husband and daughter work at Rutgers (where he's going to be), so they are going to see if I can possibly meet him... :FAINTS: I heart Robin Thicke! Whooooooooooooooo!!! Right into my pillow. One of those stress relieving screams. You guys! I am so..I don't know the word..um, hopeless? Yeah I guess that'll do. I'm feeling sorry for myself! I feel so stupid for feeling the way I do..I mean, stupid because I brought my issue upon myself. I'm the one who asked for a "break"...Hell, I'm the one who thought it'd be good. I guess I lied. That, or I'm just blind and lonely. I don't know, but what I do know is that I miss sooo much. Most, from awhile back, but still. I miss him. I feel it was unfortunate for things to go the way they did, for everything to come down to this. But when I say and think all of that, I kind of feel like I'm making excuses for my own loneliness. Not to object my feelings oor anything but I get so confused when I find myself thinking about him and, yes, wanting to see him and be able to hug him and laugh with him, and think that, well, "Shannon, you did this to yourself, deal with it." Maybe I don't need a break? Maybe it was just something I needed to get over personally. Or maybe I'm just in a getting over process? I don't know! Shit, I'll take any advice I can get my dudes. OK! So PLEASSSSE. Let a btch know! ANYYTHIIIING! Sigh Why is this shit so hard? I'll never know. I'm only 18..I have a great deal to learn I guess.. :( Song: Goodbyes - Kelis As for me..it's been a crazy day. I'm going to take a nap...I'll be back to write laterr. Song: Glamorous - Fergie Flossy, flossy! But I just wanted to say, I went shopping todaaaay! Yessir. Today, I fulfilled my want for rings. So I bought like..5 or 6. They're really cute. Y'know it was always about necklaces and earrings for awhile, and it still is. Then it went to bangles, now there's a ring phenomenon starting and I think it's so cute. So I got some and LOVE them. Ugh I'm such a trend bitch sometimes. But! Leave it to me to buy the ones that were on their way out because no one wanted them. SO hey... I also bought new sunglasses. I was going to get these flashy aviators..but honey, no. Just no. I have a similar style of sunglasses that compliment the shape of my face better than aviators..so I got big black ones instead. They're cute. For driving though. I need dark shades..because the damn sun always sneaks up and blinds a bitch- - EVERY morning. What else did I get? Oh yeah a grey vintage tee with music notes all over it..and a pink vintage marilyn monroe tee. love it. ok anyways! i have to find a way to dry this black nail polish so I can go to sleeeep. ugh. c-l-a-s-s tomorrow. whoo. ill chat later maybe. toodles! Song: Smile - Lily Allen  Look at me. Doing homework! What! Save this picture OK? I can't stand this grade school bullshit. I feel like I am in 5th grade with this elementary math homework. I'm supposed to be in college and I'm getting this? Whatever! I'm into reports and papers- shit like that. Yeah! I said it, I like writing papers, etc. Not this math language. <---- To the left math! TO THE LEFT!
I'm so not finishing it..it is too late and I'm tired..I'll do it when I wake up. Today is my mother's birthdaaay. Yeah Yeah. My dad is taking her to Atlantic City for two days. So I have thee house to MYSELF! Heey. They're leaving at 1 PM. But I won't be home from class til' 5 so boo! I'm probably going to be napping when I get home anyways.Oh well. I'll chat later today.
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Song: Lost Without You - Robin Thicke my loverrrr. http://img329.imageshack.us/img329/2686/walls001ha2.jpg http://img329.imageshack.us/img329/6550/walls002fx6.jpg http://img172.imageshack.us/img172/1362/walls003dt4.jpg http://img172.imageshack.us/img172/3632/walls004ya2.jpg And this one I did last night after I bought the new V Magazine. =) http://img260.imageshack.us/img260/9012/walls005qr8.jpg It's a lot of fun..call me corny but when you just want to stay home for a change..put on some music (or music videos, like I did) and just chill out and be creative, it's really relaxing. Oh well. That's all for today though..I'm going back downstairs to eat more bad food. haha. Ciao! Song: Piece of My Heart - Janis Joplin DRIVER OF THE YEAR AWARD GOES TO: SHANNON & THE BLACK HONDA CIVIC! Thank you, thank you. But seriously though. ALL THAT, and THERE WERE NO PARTIES! WHAT THE FUCK!! I was done by then..I was so through with it. I mean i did drink two cups of THE CAPTAIN and half of Lisas bottle...But still I wanted to get my dance on. Don't they know??? I JUST WANNA DANCE!!!! Is that too much to ask? All that gas I wasted and I walked around in 20 degree weather with my friends looking for parties..? Not cuuute! not cute at all! My legs and my behind were numb..my jeans mustve been too tight..I couldnt feel my fingers. it was horrible. Ok not horrible..I mean, leave it to me to run down the street singing the "Dreamgirls" songs. (So I kinda had to make my own fun, but for real though, I went there to be entertained. I turned out to be the entertainment) Ugh whatever! Atleast my friends enjoyed seeing me, i enjoyed seeing them. It was weird though..being there and not being able to walk to my own room and what not..lol Okay, over it. SuperBowl tomorrow...whoo hoo. Another boring ass halftime show. Then again who knows, I heard Beyonce is coming out with Prince. Tired! But whatever. If he doesn't, still, tired! What is he going to perform? "Purple Rain"? "Let's Go Crazy"? Like ALWAYS...UGH! PERFORM "LITTLE RED CORVETTE" DAMNIT! I hope somebody is provacative tomorrow. I don't care what anyone says...but everybody KNOWS they watched them halftime shows because of the envelope pushing or the relevance of whoever is gonna be there. shit i dont know about YOU guys..but I'd rather see naked body parts than fall asleep to a Beatle, see the skeleton of a rock and roll artist from 1900, or watch a little man moan. Wait, if he moans in that microphone..I'ma be pissed! You better believe if there is some sexual activity going on in the halftime or whenever..I'm emailing somebody. Because no one is getting away with that after they want to do Janet wrong for bumpin and grindin with "white priveledged" Justin Timberlake and for him exposing her breast. Alriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight. Shoot! Atleast her show was WATCHABLE. Atleast it had everyone in my house saying, "Oh wow did you see that?" As opposed to what Mick Jagger got in my house, "Can you turn to see what's on NBC..?" Yeah. I'll choose a boob for $500 Pat! OK enough for me. I'm taking it DOWWWN. Toodles. Song: I Get Lonely - JANET! Tomorrow, Renata wants me to go to a male review with her. HaHa. & You know with my status and boredom, I'll probably go. I have no problem looking at sexy men...I mean, they better be sexy...shit. I'll be mad. So if I do go, I'll let you know all about it. lol. Right now I'm sitting in bed awaiting 1:30 so I can drive to class for 2. State & Local Govt. [sarcasm] Yaay. [/ends sarcasm]. & Ugh I have to start going to Math Lab to complete my hours. I received the least amount of hours out of everyone...I still don't understand why I'm in this stupid people class. I only have 4 hours to do. That's 2 hours a day that is allowed. Everyone else has 12+ hours. And this is like..adding, subtracting, multiplication, fractions (which is the part that got me 4 hours in the first place) etc. That's only because I haven't messed with fractions since the beginning of Junior year, OK! & Don't lie! Multiplying and dividing fractions is a pain in the ASS! I'm an artiiiist! Which means the right side of my brain that deals with problems and equations and shit like that, isn't too swift. I'm a left brainer. I like words and colors- shit like that. :listens: OK so my stomach just cursed me out. I have to go make my starving self something to eat. lol I'll talk to you folks laterrrrr. Song: Take Care - Janet, duh! I like her first single, "Thinkin' About You". I'm guessing, from what I am hearing it's about how this girl is in love with this guy he takes up most of her thoughts, but she also feels that he's moving away from her, that he really doesn't need her in his life at this point in time; like she wants him to move on in his life and do his thing. But the catch, she says she'll be thinking about him, she's going to take him (the thought of him) whereever she goes, and she asks him to do the same. Basically, we're moving on, but never forget me. It's a nice song, and the video is quite creative. +++ from me! Other than that...some songs are good...some are sleepers. Let me stop lying...most are sleepers. *snore. Next ---> Anyways..what did I do today? Just classes. Pysch and State & Local Govt. But yo, tell me why I was driving home from my last class and I had to take this long way because a pole fell down on one street-all these emergcy police and firefighters..whatever. Big mess.. So I was in Woodbridge and I got on Route 9 and drove to Perth Amboy and went home a different way, and I get on this bridge to go into Perth Amboy from Route 9 and I needed gas to begin with, but my stupid friggin' ass decided to wait til I was closer to home. On top of that, my matinence required light has always been on it went from green, to yellow, to orange and it's been orange for a good while. Well! On my way, that shit decided to turn RED! OK! My heart fell out of my ass...I'm going over this bridge and my speedometer says I'm going 60 mph and I don't feel like I'm going anywhere..my car felt really light. So I was praying like a Muslim @ prayer time.. omg. I kept saying, "Please dont stop on the bridge, please please pleaseeee!" LOL. So I get on the main road and I'm driving, blah blah, and I see all these gas stations and I pass them, ALL! Y'know I may be on the brink of breaking down with no gas, but I'm cheap..everywhere said $1.93 and I swore I'd find cheaper. I did. $1.91. Hahahaha. & I was fine from there. Minus all the asshole people who CANNOT drive, period. Seriously, how are you going to be in a area that's 45mph speed limit, and you are driving 30??? And if you been in my car with me, you know I have road rage like no other. I start cursing like a pirate and it's just not good. lol. I weave through streets and lanes like it's the race of my life. That's bad though...I have a speeding problem, but atleast I admit it. Oh well. lol. Well, I'm about to go read about the brain and nuerons, etc. for Pyschology tomorrow...[sarcasm] YAY! [/ends sarcasm] (fuck you, science!) i'm gone! Song: Sparks - Coldplay |
