|
moonchild
 lover.friend.daughter.sister.jewelry designer. student of life.creative.writer.cancer. native new yorker.residing in new jersey. Instagram
fav apps
 Instagram & Audiogalaxy 
 iBooks & MiniPets current read
 currently on Fifty Shades Darker twitter
mail
bijou box
|
    And all those clothes you see, they're ALL clean. So why are they on the floor? Because I was too lazy to put them away. Well last night, I decided to go to work on my room and I think it came out rather well.     So nice. & The closet, it's color coordinated. GO ME! sigh Im so proud of myself. Song: Like A Star = Corinne Bailey Rae R is for the rumors they make-I wish that they were true U you put a smile on my face-You're unforgettable S is for your sexiness H I gotta have you I have to stop with this boy business. Ugh. I'm going to get in trouble being this single. Damn. lol. But seriously, I don't want to say too much, but I think this boy is special. That is all. Song: Lonely's The Only Company - Maxwell this all sounds shallow, i know. relief by spending money on materials? YA DAMN RIGHT ! Shit. I needed this shopping trip. Clowns are trying to steal my shine, my happiness, my liveliness..so I took it back! but um i gotta get ready. im going out tonight. toodles Song: Gone - Esthero featuring Cee-Lo Be 100% truthful! 1. Howd you get your middle name? My old neighbor back in Staten Island, she was my brothers and eventually my babysitter. 2. What were you doing this morning at 8am? taking a shower. 3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago? washing my face. 4. Are you any good at math? HELL NO! I'm so stupid in math. 18 years old in a basic math class. :shakes head: 6. Do you have any famous ancestors? My grandfather was in a famous band back in the day. (Famous locally that is) He was and still is a drummer. And now he's the lead singer also. BEYONCE-ISM! 7. Are you mad at anyone right now? Yes. -stupid males- 8. Do you know the words to the song on your MySpace profile? I actually don't have a song on there at the moment. hm. 9. Last thing you received in mail? A letter from LaSalle University telling me they will offer me 17,000 a year if I go back. Egg on their face! 10. How many different drinks have you had today? Orange Juice, Ginger Ale, Coke, Water 12. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machine? Yes. 13. Any plans for tonight? I'm driving up to FDU to visit Lou and Bo! Yayyyy! 14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach? OMG Yes. 15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had? Getting my silver filling replaced with a white one and the damn dentist hit my nerve and I - omg. Let's not talk about it. 16. What's outside your front door? a hallway, the door to my bathroom, and my brothers old room. 17. Do you have plans on friday night? Today is Friday and I told you- I'm going to FDU! 18. Do you like the ocean? Of Course! 19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different kinds of popcorn for Christmas? Mhm and enjoyed every minute of eating it by myself. 20. Have you ever been to a museum? Yeah...a LONG time ago though. Like 2002 I went to the National Geographic Museum in Manhattan. I saw a dinosaur too. It was amazing. 22. Something you are excited about? Seeing my friendsssss. 23. Who around you has the most problems? Me probably. lol 24. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive? No. God rest their souls. 25. Describe your life? Funny, laid back, sarcasm rules, dreamer, strives for happiness, success, just wants to live comfortably, needs great people, needs appreciation, trust- a friend. and love. 26. Where do you keep your change? Every-damn-where!!!!! 27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people? the first day of pysch class. I had to tell everyone the craziest thing I did. I screamed the hell out of possible kidnappers/rapists in Philly who tried to pick me and my friend up off the subway. THINK AGAIN! I AM NINJA! 28. Do you like anyone right now? Yes, I do. :) 29. What was the weather like on your birthday? Well it was cloudy in the morning, rained a wee bit then it was GORGEOUS out and about 85 degrees out. (JULY 22ND) 30. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed? Closed. I'm scared of monsters and the dark hallway. lmao. Song: Scream - Keri Hilson & Nicole Scheringzer / Timbaland what else? today was eh. first day back at school. i didnt feel like going to math- so i didnt. i was real tired. what a dumb ass day. the best part was american idol. i never laughed so much. that and this amazing pannini my dad bought in the city at this place called Vesuvios. so good. anyways im going to watch some tv and finish this sandwich. But anyways, I have two things to talk on. First, like I said earlier, I've been busy! Yes, busy! I've been having so muccch fun. Friday night, Steph and I went into the city and went to club Fusion. A blast. We were in VIP and paid for! We saw a fashion show and made some random friends on the street afterwards. Went to McDonalds with them and we had a blast. It was an exciting night. Saturday I hung out with Renata. We went to New Brunswick and hang out in Starbucks for a couple hours. It was funny as hell though, because across the street is this Bar & Grill/Brewery and these guys sitting by the window and me and Renata were sitting in the window at Starbucks and one by one, each guy, drunk out of his face, would come out of the bar and run across the street and come to the window infront of us and rub their nipples and blow us both kisses and run back. LOL What the hell! It was so random too. Fortunately, 1 AM came quickly and I had to be home because I had to wake up early. Sunday, me my mom, my aunt, and her friend Chrissy went to the International Hair Show at the Javits Center in the city. It was pretty cool. My cousin Jennifer got us in for free because she works it every year. She was working at this vendor called Columbia Make Up it was cute and she gave me a tray and was like, "Put whatever you want on it and give it to me" So I loaded that shit with bronzers, eyeshadows, eyeliner, blush brushes, eye shadow brushes, lip glosses in like 5 different colors..lol I mustve got $100 worth of stuff...for free pa dow! what! I was souuuped! We walked around some more and watched people do haircuts and color and I found a color I wanted highlighted into my hair (which I have now.Ill get to that later). After about 3 or 4 hours of walking around we went to Little Italy to eat at Sorrentos. I had Veal Saltimbulca...SOOOOOOOOOOOOO DELICIOUS! Ugh I was just besides myself eating haha. Afterwards, we had to be at the Copacabana for a show by a company called AG. Weird. But whatever. The styles were so, "If my hairdresser cut my hair like that, that bitch better be ready for a lawsuit." After the show, they played music and went around with ourderves. We got home around 2am. Overall, it was a fun time. My aunts friend was a mess! She had me laughin the whole time. Monday? I forget what I did on Monday...hm..Oh yeah I hung out with Mohammed. aka MIA. I havent seen his ass in so long because hes always at work or isn't allowed to come out. We ate and then went to the mall. I havent been there in ages too. Which also gives you a heads up on my job search. aka stagnant! Nothing at all. Haven't even tried. So sad. I need one really really bad though. you all dont even understand. lol But on a GREEEEEEEEAT note, Tuesday I got my hair colorred! Yes'm First I got caramel highlights in it and then a Paprika semi-permanant put on it to tint my natural color and to make the caramel a copper color. So it basically looks red. I think it's cute. Maybe I'll put a picture up we'll see. But I love it! =) Now Antonio requested me to spill the beans on the post I made about someone needing to get over themselves and start using their brain. I dunnno it's just been going on and on and this whole thing with "time" and giving myself the ability to overlook everything and it was such a bad idea. The time just made me want to move on and well, I don't think he wants to. It's frustrating yet, I always go back and think, well maybe... "Do I really want to just go on..?" It's so confusing- I never show it or say it. All I've let be known is that I'm ready to move on and for some reason, it's never understood. I don't know what I have to say or do to make it sink in even more. It's like asking for directions and someone writes down where you need to go and you have that paper right infront of your face, and you still go the wrong way. Lord knows I am so ready to move on... Friday. mhmmmmm. Song: Easy Silence - Dixie Chicks Wooooooooooooooooooo! for REAL spring weather!! Song: Take Control - Amerie For real. End. (((I'll write more about what's been going on at a later date...I've been busy))) i'll write about it when i wake up in the morning. a bitch is TIIIIIIIIIRED. Song: Icebox Remix - Omarion & Usher So I went to Colonia's baskeball game today in East Orange - it was for state's or something and OMG. I had so much fuckin fun. It was crazy. Yall aint never seen fans like Colonia kids. Bunch of crazy ass white kids who don't give a fuck. They had East Orange police there telling our side to sit down and we didn't. Big ass 7 foot bodyguard looking dude came over and yelled and was threatening people..these little white kids STILL standing yelling, "BOOOOO YOU SUCK - SHUT UP!" I was like Oh No! We about to be burnt down lol. They played some wack ass team though. Passaic Valley (where?!???) Hornets. They were so dumb and the game was so rigged. Everybody knew it. There was this Monopoly looking man there the whole time he was probably paying the refs and shit. But yeah Colonia played a fierce fucking game. Came back LAST MINUTE TWICE. With like 2 seconds on the clock. I ain't never yelled so much in my life. And the other team just kept fallin all over the floor calling fouls and shit, and was grabbin peoples shirts.. (and I mean how else you supposed to get someone off whose ripping your shirt? AND! Since when is that legal in basketball?) I was getting so heated that they were playing so fucking dirty. I really was waiting for one of Colonia's players to just nominate themselves to punch the shit out of one of them ugly ass kids. So wack. They were mad ugly too..so I did not enjoy the view. smh Anywho, it was fun being with all them kids and shit. I kinda felt old and out of place. It's so weird being in that atmosphere after you graduate. I kinda miss it. =( It's so carefree and exhilarating...then again..I go to county college now..maybe that's why I'm feeling so emotional about it. LOL. Boring ass county fucking college. I seen my old gym teachers. (the best bitches in the world..so hood! they the real.) sigh OK I'm getting emotional. :sniff: I need to be doing my math homework and going to bed. I plan to get up at 630 to be in that math lab at 8AM tomorrow to sit and wait until two hours is up..lol. So I can go take my retarded people math exam and get on with my government class. So I'll get back at you laterr. BTW I'm changing my layout once or twice a week til April 3rd. It's gonna be based on a new video from B that's coming out so heey. keep checkin up on it! Song: That's What You Are - Amerie Anywho- I probably should get going I have two more hours to complete so I'm going to go do that. I'll be back later before I hit up East Orange with my duuude. Song: Suga Mama - Beyonce Anywho- You like my new layout? Straight up Beyonce- Kitty Kat video. Yes, girl! You-better-work!! I heard she vogue's in it. NINJA STYLE! Ooh I can't wait to see it. And all the other fiddyleven videos she got coming out on APRIL 3RD ON DVD IN WALMART. :) I can't wait to see "Suga Mama" though. Oh my word. She a stripper in it..dancing on TWO poles for her mans. If only I had someone who would appreciate/encourage a fun activity like that........................................ So yeah- I cut my hair again everybody. Now it's up to the middle of my neck and it's highlighted in the front. It's cute..bobby- cut. I don't know what I'm trying to do with changing my hair all the time now..but whatever! LOL I almost did a Halle Berry move though. Forreal. I thought some red highlights...(a nice auburn) would be fly if my hair was that short. But then, I thought of Kelly Rowland- 2001 and was like, girl, no. You are not Kelendria, and this ain't a Survivor photoshoot. So yeah I didn't do it. I like it short though. A bitch don't have to a damn thing to it! It's so easy. I stare at myself longer than it takes to do my hair now. So heeeey. It did take me two hours to get ready- now it's like 45 minutes to an hour. Real nice and easy. Maybe it'll help me on my boyfriend hunt. Yknow I kept saying I wasn't looking..and shit. No one ever approaches me. Plenty of guys talk to me and what not..but nobody ever says, "You wanna go out..?" I mean..besides people that are looking for a wife..and well..I'm not about to start cleaning nobody's house. <---- The past three boyfriends..who made the moves..? Me. And that whole ordeal obviously is not working in my best interest. My friend Matt just told me, "You're an attractive girl, guys are so weak nowadays they just think you're too good for them." Um, grow balls! I mean, I'm not even going to lie..I think I deserve to be treated the best that anyone can treat somebody- and of course, I'll give that in return, but that is the place where everybody be fucking up. I don't know what the hell the deal is. But guys need to know that if they want to be treated right by their females, then you better step the fuck up. & I know there are some trife females out there, but for the guys who have the good ones, you better bend over backwards for that bitch, OK? You can't be coming up short in every other thing and not giving your all at all times and expect the world to be brought upon your feet. And I know everyone is not perfect but for the dumbass mothafuckers who think saying, "Oh I'm not perfect and I can't be the best all the time.." is going to excuse you from your being the best boyfriend/husband/friend you possibly can, then if you haven't already been, you're going to be let GO! Sang it girl...let's go, let's go little kitty kat..he don't wantcha..anymore..! I'm so tired of these standards people set for the people they're supposed to love. You say you love somebody, well than shit, you better fucking show it. Love ain't just a word you dumb crackheads. Love is an emotion and an action. Love ain't a phone call or a shirt, love is when you know you drop everything at the opportunity to see somebody. Love is not infatuation or setting someone up on a pedestal because of their stature to everyone else. Love is when you can't even sleep because your dreams are filled with images of someone. Love is when your whole world lights up in the darkest of your days, when you hear their voice or see their face. Love is not giving yourself up to someone else, it's sharing yourself. I'm just so sick and tired of it being put all on me; like I am the only one in the relationships I get into. Like I have to do everything, like they are just there as an accessory to me. Shit, mothafucker if I need another accessory, I'd go out and buy a bangle and a matching purse. Alright. I need a man. Someone who deserves what the fuck I have to give to somebody. And there's a lot to give...because so far..I haven't found anyone who was willing to appreciate what I had to share... My friend Ahmed just told me to write a book. At first, I thought he was on some Britney Spears drugs, but I figured you know what. It's a good idea. I mean it won't be anything spectacular, but I figured, I have never really heard of someone my age write a book about what is really going on with young adults straight out of high school-fresh into college, and the pressures, the priorities, and the decisions that are all rolled up into a span of five years. I'll have to think about it some more......but I feel it's such a good idea. Even if no one reads it..I bet it'll make me feel better. :) Well I'm going to bed..atleast for a little..lol Goodnight. Song: Sirens - Brandy Anyways..lets discuss somethings to pass time. What I do tonight? Well my parents went out to East Hampton or Montauk today..my dad has his boat sittin out there in a shrink wrap..which I guess is this really strong rubber/plastic wrap they cover boats with in the winter time to protect from the elements (yes i really just sounded like i knew what i was talking about) but yeah they were out there to pay for it and look at another boat. My dad be swearin' he's going to get a bigger boat. Right. He ain't getting shit before my mom gets the new car she been waiting six years for. Then again she wants the new Lexus IS something..and I doubt they going to be payin however much for that damn car. alright. I mean I know I'm not going to a college they paying 10 grand a year towards anymore but shit..that don't mean they gotta go crazy. I wanna be able to have heat next winter, alright? My parents was waay too excited when I decided to go to county college instead. My dad rushed to the internet to look at boats for sale. Uh Uh. Trife. Well what was I gonna say? Yeah what I do. I woke up at 12...nobody home. I took a shower watched Monster-In-Law on HBO. *Funny Movie* then I called Steph to go eat. We went to Jos Tejas first..which is a tex-mex place that for some reason, the whole state of New Jersey was at tonight..the wait for TWO people was two hours. DA FUCK they selling? Shit mustve been for free that two people needed to wait two hours for a damn table. OK. I was not too hungry to be standing two hours for a fajita. No thanks amigo. So we went to the family buffet instead and got real Nutty Professor 2 in that place. Unfortunately, my head started throbbing there. But I stuck it out and we went to New Brunswick again for Starbucks...and we aint going no more because my gift card to there currently has .29 cents left on it..and unless I wanna buy a crumb, I ain't going anytime soon. So we chilled for awhile..acting stupid as ever...like always. Then she drove me home because my brain was just not being my friend tonight..that shit was punching me in the eyes and in the neck and I didn't appreciate it. So I came home and changed so quick into sweatpants..and I was passed out in like..two minutes. I don't even remember falling asleep actually. & on the way home, we had a good ass chat too. Talkin' about our trife past relations and the issues that failed come up. Mhm. Yeah. That is all you need to know! That + being females..you already know the issues. But yeah. We are a mess. But whatever..I guess you can say, I am currently happy and free and looking? No I'm not looking. Spring break is coming up and well..we are going to see what happens with shit. I have a feeling I'm going to go back and do something because of the "opportunity" i may give myself and him. but who knows. Shit, I don't care! OKAY! I do not care. A bitch gotta hers nowadays, you think I'm beat? No siiiirrrr! Patna' let me upgrade youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! Anyways I'm gonna lay down and see if I pass out...I'll talk to you folks laterrrrr. Song: Love Of My Life - Erykah Badu feat. Common "you know how i met her,  Look at me... trying to get my Deena Jones on. Swearin' I am somebody. Come on baby...one night only...SIKE! Let me stop, before I drag it to death.
Sigh, I am a damn mess, but! it's alright though. That's why I love me, cause I'm so random and stupid-fun for myself and whoever laughs at me. YAY for laughing at ourselves. Laughter cures everything and I think we ALL should get a double dose of laughter in our lives nowadays. Don't you think? Come oooon errrrbody! LAUGH with me! HA HA HA HA HA Don't it feel nice? So yeah..I know you didn't laugh. That's what makes this funny. Cause I know you're sitting there like..what the fuck is going on in the blog entry right now. Well..I'll be honest...I just finished three glasses of wine. Wine that my PARENTS MADE. Yeah! My parentals make their own WINE my dudes. And it's DEEEELICIOUS! Too delicious I'd say. Cause my stupid ass be drinkin it waay too much. My dad gets mad too cause my mother lets me drink with her. He grabs my glass like this aint yours and I'm like, "Well it doesnt have YOUR name on it so give it here you thief!" And my mother is all in the background like, "Let her drink it...she's 18" And my dad is like, "Well the drinking age in my house is 30" I was like what! Full of DOO DOO! Because I KNOW he was letting my brother...when he FIRST turned 18 have a new years party in THE BASEMENT with like 15 of his goofy lookin FRIENDS and they were ALL DRUNK out of their minds. And my parents bought them liquor! So what the fuck. OK! So according to my mother...I can drink all the liquor and wine I want as long as I don't get out the house and act like a fool. Though I did do that at LaSalle...man walking them streets drunk was an experience... Anyways...let me go before I start telling secrets and shit and stuff. Because them things are secrets for a reasoooon! So li-histennnnnn..mmmhmmm.. I'm going to bed. BYE! SONG: POPPIN' REMIX - CHRIS BREEEEEEEZY! LIL WEEZY juelz Why she released, not one, but two videos today?! Bitch did a video with Shakira to their duet, "Beautiful Liar" and she premiered the "Upgrade U" video on BET. Just..hott. With her little shimmy shimmy dance in "Upgrade U" and pretending to be JayZ :dead: Here's the video: Upgrade U! Yeah B! Talk Yo Shiiiiii! Whoooooooo! Now I must go to bedd I'm beat! Song: Upgrade U - Beyonce! |