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moonchild

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      omgosh!
    OK tonight was like a night of desperation -- really.

    I went to the WHACKEST party everrrrrrrr. EVER! I drove all the way over to Kean University to this party my friend who I went to elementary school with (whack!) and it was like the worst decision of the week. I brought DaVon and Renata with me since I haven't seen both of them in awhile and Renata is going to Cali on Saturday (tomorrow?) so I won't be seeing her for a good while. So dumb of me though. We left quick. My other friend Valentino was there (we used to talk back in like, junior year of high school -- he got hooked quick and dropped quick; le sigh) and that still didn't keep us in the area. We were Outtie 5000 super fast.
    Then I dropped them off and went to Rahway to hang out with Ralph, Chris, Joe, Kevin, and Terrel. It ended up being me, Ralph, and Joe on the sidewalk -- reminiscing about old television shows that we miss (In Living Color, Blossom, Family Matters, All That, ParentHood, etc.).

    Afterwards was a suprise. I hung out with Eddie. :shakes head: (the ex by the way).
    It's not a bad thing -- I know I just made a previous post about him because someone made me bring his name up and blahzy blah. But yeah, we went to Dunkin' Donuts and hung out til' 4:30 in the morning. It was nice. I swear I'm going to be good this time. Nothing is going to happen and I can promise that. I have to learn self-control, especially with him because I know if I want something, I can get it. That knowledge alone is my downfall and his depression, so I'm going to fallback and just let it be casual and friendly. He doesn't deserve the pain nor do I want to inflict it.

    Now however, I'm going to get the little nap I can afford before I leave to go to the beach for a couple of hours with Renata and Jen (I think?) til' 12:30. Then it's my dreaded doctor's appointment at the gynecologist. Aw hell! Yes, the gyn. I have to get an evil colposcopy (a biopsy of the cervix; to check for cervical cancer since it runs in my family). :CRIES: I am so scared. I may pass out -- everyone who has had one says it hurts and I am afraid, 1. of the pain and 2. of kicking that poor man in the face. -- trust. because I will if I feel the need!

    Wish me luck and a tan -- I need to get something out of the day before I semi-die.

    Arrivederci! (spelling?!) LOL!


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