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moonchild
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Tea time: (event) Where all the tea gets spilled on a load of all those funky assed, camel-backed gargoyles out there that I sincerely have issues with. So, let's get down to business. What is it about the topic of the past that people adore so much? Every time something ends abruptly or on sad or disgruntled terms, somehow, always resurfaces and it's beaten over and over again every single time you have a conversation with that person in particular. It can be a ex-friend, ex-boyfriend, co-worker, or what have you, but when something pinnacle happens in one of your relationships -- don't ever believe that you and them are going to "get over it" because you're not. It's just the way things are. It'll be that quiet, musty, I-don't-want-to-kiss-your-ass-so-I'll-slap-you-with-what-I-hate-about-us moment when you know good and well that you really have no business talking to this person in the first place. But it's like crack, you can't help but get that nonsense into your veins and feel the heat of the moment all over again. The same heat and fire that went through you when you and this person had your falling out. So you're sitting there and cannot help but have nothing in common anymore and there goes your word vomit habit, and you blurt out a "WHY?!" or some more detailed question about what the hell happened between the two of you. And it ensues... You two play at that sick, sadistic game of placing blame and experiencing revelations together. Becoming more and more upset at the fact that even though this conversation is taking place, nothing will ever change. That no matter how much you have moved on, this memory, this predicament, will always lay deep in the back of your mind causing you to further analyze every single friendship, relationship, and person you meet. Casually comparing them to who that person was and what they ended being to you. But you know what? Fuck that, okay? I think we all need to just sit down and write down all the "Go-Backs" in our lives. Sit down with a notepad and just write down every name you can think of that you just can't get over. When you're done look at their name and picture their face and tell yourself, "...their loss". Learn from what they said to you and what they did. Even if it was your fault that the two of you are no longer able to be friends, tell yourself it'll never happen that way again. You are going to be who you are, no matter what. The things you can't understand or get a grip on, throw it away. It's trash. No one keeps their trash, right? (I hope not, if you do -- click that X you nasty hoe.) You shouldn't either. There are over 8 billion people in this world, don't let ONE scag ruin your conquest to build new relationships. Even if the person isn't a scag (but I'm pretty sure they are...) don't be scared to leave them behind. Now, the issue...I cannot fathom for the life of me, WHY the saddest of all people come into contact with me and decide to pull this on me. "Why Shannon?" You know who you are. Don't even look away from the screen or go looking to type in "Facebook" or something. I have this thing where, if I do not like you anymore -- that's it. You could do something I completely despise and I promise you, you will not hear from me ever -- unless I somehow, learn of your renewed attitude or change in behavior. Yeah, that's pretty much me. You won't even hear about it. If you're lucky, I'll tell you once what you did and call it a dandy day. Then, you can sulk in your foolishness. Honestly, I can despise you for the stupidest of things, but you're still a fool -- I won't lie. Anyways, so I was laying in bed, wrapped in my blankets, comfortable and ready to pass out when I get an IM/text and it ensues. It started as a normal Hey what's up kind of conversation and then there was that assed-out moment where there was a silence. Then the "..there were a lot things wrong with us." Excuse me? But why? What is your reasoning for this Tom Foolery? Hm? Honey, this was with someone that's been out of my cluster of friends/people I consider worthy for a very long time, over a year time. So, why? Why can you not just be worthy of a real live conversation without becoming a complete idiotic juvenile? I am saddened at the fact that such a person occupied my time in the past. People, please...beware of your "Go-Backs" if they wanna talk, make up some dumb ass excuse and tell them no. And if you're someone elses "Go-Back" do not stand for their musty talk! Stand up! ------ P.S. Like the new layout? Let me know please! ;) xoxo |