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moonchild
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Anywho, just to update you guys on additions to the site, I added a link in my links section. It's the I, Janet letter from a 2002 issue of Essence magazine. It pretty much sums up why she's a the greatest. No really, it does. I realized the other day that I didn't have it in my links so I went and added it. I am also going to add another blog I am currently working on with a few other people. It's a freelance design project that I put together to maybe, possibly, design things for merchandising, etc for her upcoming tour. Afterall, her label is not involved with the tour so I figured it'd be a huge, loving gesture from fans, to help try and create things for her. Who knows if it'll be seen let alone be used for anything other than fans printing this stuff out and putting it on their shirts themselves -- it's a fun project so yeah. The blog will give people an opportunity to glance at different things the 5 or 6 of us are working on. It will also give others that I may not know of, the opportunity to join in and the ability to create additional pieces. So, keep an eye out for that -- it should be up by next week the latest. ;) Here's a little something I'll show you for now:  Just a little taste of bigger & better things to come. So, I broke my promise to myself in a way, tonight. I said I was going to be good and not want anything. Well, I lied -- atleast in my own personal, freaky, hot, thoughts. I want it. Badly. I didn't get it though. I was replaced for a good nights sleep. Ain't that some shit? LOL! Who sleeps?! -- Okay, so what I'm an insomniac -- who cares. Still, it does not dissolve the fact that sleep is overrated and well, sex & heaven is so much betta. Hey girl, hey. Damn..so much for my celibacy, too. I am just on a roll aren't I? I need to take some anti-libido pills or something. Do those exist? If they do -- click the "Info" tab at the top and e-mail/instant message me some information or any kind of activities that you know of that can help me out in this everlasting time of "would you mind (off Janet's All For You album -- get into it)". Anyways, let me tell you all what happened this weekend. So, basically Friday -- after my biopsy and listening to everyones personal issues I fell really ill. I don't know if it was just the experience or the bleeding that I had -- or the nitrate sticks my doctor used to clot the areas -- but yeah, I felt like complete shit. I was naustious, dizzy, tired; it just was not good. So I fell asleep from 6 until about 2 AM. I woke up and did laundry, packed my bag (for Long Island), showered and just stayed bored til 5AM when my mother and future sister-in-law woke up. We then left for the Hamptons Saturday morning -- I sat in the back of my bug, with Max my dog (a Yorkie) - what an asshole he is on car rides. It's like he doesn't know what to do with himself and just acts like a total retard. I love him to death though..just not when I am trying to sleep on the ride out and he's jumping all over my face. So, yeah once we got out to South Hampton we stopped at the Princess Diner and ate breakfast and then went to the Mini Cooper dealership because my mother swears she is getting one of those cars. She wanted to test drive it so she got all excited when they had a white one with black stripes because that's basically her dream Cooper. LOL. It was a pretty cool car. It's like a little go-kart. It's really fun to drive. AMAZING on gas too. I kinda want one LOL. Afterwards, we shopped in Bridgehampton and then drove out to Montauk and went to the beach with some lunch in our bags. The beach was beautifuuuuul! I was so happy to be in the sun, with the sand under my feet and the heat from the sand coming through the blanket I was laying on. It was amazing. At about 4:00 my brother txtd my sister in law and told her him, my dad, my other brother Jeremy and the guys on the boat would be at the yatch club in 20 minutes ( they were in a shark tournament). So we drove on over and watched them come in on my dad's boat, the Shannon D. yeah yeah. My father named the boat after me! I was soooo besides myself when the announcer kept saying the name of the boat - I was like, "Yeah, yeah...that'd be me...Shannon D -- that's my dad's boat!" Meanwhile the dumbass hippie in front of me was like, "Shannon D? What's that stand for Shannen Dogherty?" Like, what? Are dumb, deaf, and blind? THAT'S ME! Losers. Anyways- they caught a 125 lb Mako shark; the only one caught that day....so far. Then this other boat came in at like 4:58 with a 175 lb Mako and won our 250,000 dollars. $250,000!!!!!!!! That makes NO sense. I was so mad. That could've been like 20 tickets to 20 different Janet shows. Fuck them, yo. Whatever. I went to bed early that night -- 9pm. And?! Fish suck. So, today I had that biopsy done - which basically, left me traumatized for life. I don't have cervical cancer but still, the procedure and watching my doctor hack pieces of flesh out of me on a magnified screen made me feel so little. And now, I have to sit and confront other peoples issues.. like..what? Today? Of all days? Y'know.....I don't know. I really thought things were getting better. Then again, it is Friday, the 13th. The beach was beautiful today, however... So watch my fellow Janet fan speak about the issue and why people need to GET INTO THIS: I went to the WHACKEST party everrrrrrrr. EVER! I drove all the way over to Kean University to this party my friend who I went to elementary school with (whack!) and it was like the worst decision of the week. I brought DaVon and Renata with me since I haven't seen both of them in awhile and Renata is going to Cali on Saturday (tomorrow?) so I won't be seeing her for a good while. So dumb of me though. We left quick. My other friend Valentino was there (we used to talk back in like, junior year of high school -- he got hooked quick and dropped quick; le sigh) and that still didn't keep us in the area. We were Outtie 5000 super fast. Then I dropped them off and went to Rahway to hang out with Ralph, Chris, Joe, Kevin, and Terrel. It ended up being me, Ralph, and Joe on the sidewalk -- reminiscing about old television shows that we miss (In Living Color, Blossom, Family Matters, All That, ParentHood, etc.). Afterwards was a suprise. I hung out with Eddie. :shakes head: (the ex by the way). It's not a bad thing -- I know I just made a previous post about him because someone made me bring his name up and blahzy blah. But yeah, we went to Dunkin' Donuts and hung out til' 4:30 in the morning. It was nice. I swear I'm going to be good this time. Nothing is going to happen and I can promise that. I have to learn self-control, especially with him because I know if I want something, I can get it. That knowledge alone is my downfall and his depression, so I'm going to fallback and just let it be casual and friendly. He doesn't deserve the pain nor do I want to inflict it. Now however, I'm going to get the little nap I can afford before I leave to go to the beach for a couple of hours with Renata and Jen (I think?) til' 12:30. Then it's my dreaded doctor's appointment at the gynecologist. Aw hell! Yes, the gyn. I have to get an evil colposcopy (a biopsy of the cervix; to check for cervical cancer since it runs in my family). :CRIES: I am so scared. I may pass out -- everyone who has had one says it hurts and I am afraid, 1. of the pain and 2. of kicking that poor man in the face. -- trust. because I will if I feel the need! Wish me luck and a tan -- I need to get something out of the day before I semi-die. Arrivederci! (spelling?!) LOL! No, really though, I brought up the one thing I've been over for like, a long time now. OK - maybe not completely over, but mostly over. A guy - yes. I honestly, don't know why I get the way I do when someone brings up his name -- because I really don't have any real "feelings" left in me anymore, besides reminscent feelings; what we "had" as in the far past - very far past. I constantly (when he comes up) despise the situation that happened between us. Everyone thinks its so unfortunate, even my own mother. I mean there wasn't any fault on either side, just a lack in, hm... what's the best way to put this? A lack of reciprocity. As soon as I felt I wasn't getting back what I gave -- it fell apart. I guess I let it get that way, but I nipped it in the bud -- or atleast that's what I aimed to do. However, things didn't change; & I stayed, I tried, and I kept a faith that I had no idea I had -- all for over 5-6 months... what is that? I scare the hell out of him is what he told me one night. If I knew what I did -- maybe it'd be different, but I have no idea. I tried. I gave up and called it quits. And I don't resent his actions.. what happens, happens. Period. I just hate that something that could've been, isn't....because of unworthy circumstances. I'll be alright I suppose. I guess it's a pretty indigenous, repetitious phase that people tend to go through every once in awhile; remembering past times and either fantasizing and/or regretting about things that have happened. Oh well. Anyways, I am sitting here procrastinating this paper I have to write for my Anthropology class as I listen to this Jonathan Peters remix of "Doesn't Really Matter"; which may I add has been blasting in my car for the past couple of days. I loooooove it. It's so summer-y and relaxing. But yeah, this paper. It's about racial stereotypes in a movie of my choice -- of course, I'm going to pick "Crash" because duh, that's the whole point of that film. I basically have to give an example from the movie, describe the scene, why it was stereotypical, and the structure of our current society and the social status we are built on that causes these kind of stereotypes. Pretty simple however, this heat makes me not want to do ANYTHING. Damn. LOL. Maybe I'll just go raid the fridge for a healthy snack and then do this paper...even though I shouldn't be eating at this hour. *_* Whatever. LOL. I'll let you guys know how it turns out later... Check this out - it was 102 degrees today, people! Figures, the only school open was the one I work at and it was like 107 as I walked through the doors at 2:30. I was SO mad they kept those kids in there. Anyways, moving along from the heat and the fact that my air conditioner has yet to be placed in my window by my wonderful father (I can't do it because it's this whole complicated process that includes nails, drilling, and a piece of wood -- don't ask) I want to discuss another reason why I am so dry -- corny ass guys. This is definately a trackback post (April 24th - Hidden Agendas). So tell me why almost every guy I befriend wants to start kickin' game to me? Like if I do not tell you from the gate, that I am interested in you like that then all hope is lost. I am one of those girls who hate wasting time fiddling around watching movies and talking about life if I like you. Shit, I'm going to tell you from the jump! If it's like 2 years later and we're watching a movie together -- don't try to kiss on my neck or touch me where your hands shouldn't be. K? Thanks. I don't understand why some guys get so souped if they're friends with a pretty girl - they automatically think she likes them. Um no - don't flatter yourself. Some of you may think I'm being too harsh but look, it has happened waaay to much for me to be all hunkey dorey about it. LOL. Sorry but I am being honest. Don't get mad at the truth. fans are pointing fingers and placing blame and its so petty. So I'm ending it here with this, what happens, happens. Period. I'm sure there's a plan - if there's a will there's a way and I do not I can't wait for this tour - I will SO be there October 17th at the Izod So yeah, this tour is all that matters! Right now though, I'm going to the mall & the movies. So let put down I'm gone. Here's the trifling article (just the Janet parts):
Um what?! Okay I'm not going to comment just yet -- here's her last statement:
Alright, so... basically IDJ has totally messed everything up -- badly. I mean, I'm assuming Janet went on over there, with high hopes that they would support her and have her back and for them to drop her in the dust like that because the artist (who may I add has been dropping albums since she was 16) wants control over what she puts out as opposed to being told what she should and should not do. Bullshit. They need to fallback. Um, LA Reid? Hello? I thought you loved that woman. I mean you did follow her in and out of every event she was at all last fall and talked about her new project like she was shitting platinum. How do you explain that? I'm so mad. Not at Janet but at the "family" that was supposed to help her rise up instead of kick her down. They won't succeed. It's happened before (Virgin), I have faith in her and no matter what anyone says, "Discipline" was and still is a solid album with a list of hits that should have been released. So, she shouldn't think twice about the quality of her work -- it's moreso the quality of her company. Whatever Island Def Jam - Janet Jackson is more than a name on your roster. She's a legend - get with the program. Next! -----> Trust -- I have nothing against the children. I love them so much it's not even a question because I practically swear on the idea that every woman should have a gay husband. I do. I have a few. Carson is one. Love you, boo! <3 Anywho- like what the fuck though? Straight men can't step their shit up a little? Because honestly, I'm dying over here. DYING. I don't know what it is with most men that they adore the idea of treating women like flavors of the week and have to have as many tastes as they please. Then, straight men wonder why females such as myself, have gay man friends. You want to know why? Because they take the time to understand females a little more, to actually be interested in what we have to say not just as friends but as people. Straight men are always so quick to pull out a dick and call heads and tails. They want what they want, when they want it and most don't seem to understand that, sure, we want to have sex too, but most of us appreciate a couple of conversations and a dinner or something before we go to Snuffy's Midnight Rodeo. Oh, and the aggressive bits? Ew. It's good in the bedroom -- y'know after I know your ass better than the color of your hair and how straight - or crooked - your teeth are. Don't grab me, harass me, call me out of my name, hug me so hard I wish I took my inhaler along the ride, or tell me to do anything out of the ordinary. Because you think I'm attractive, and you think to yourself that you're attractive, that means you automatically can do what you please? Hell naw. There are a lot of guys out there who I've shut down real, real, hard because they just thought they were the shit and all they were was shit. A big ol' piece of doo doo. Just pathetic. See, a gay man would never dream in any of his days, to walk up to any female, friend or not, and do any of the aforementioned. Maybe besides calling her a bitch -- but that's a different story and a whole different kind of exception. LOL (Carson!) Yes, I am mad. And? Men need to step up and stop acting like animals. Not cute at all. I'll stick with my gay husbands. Hey Girl Hey ! Today, I decided to go shopping after work -- finally, some time to treat myself (I haven't been shopping in forever thanks to those oh so hefty gas prices that I still cannot afford but whateverr). For some odd reason I feel low on accessories. Now, I'm really a big accessory girl -- but I adore bags, sunglasses, and the "new" in thing, scarves (I own about 11 right now..haha). So I decided to hit up H&M. H&M never lets me down, especially, ESPECIALLY, with their prices. This past Saturday my mom bought me this purple scarf from there and I love it and get a lot of compliments so I decided to go back and get the pink one (only $6.80!) Good thing, too because I went in the store and there was only one left and i snatched it so hard. LMAO. As I was walking around the store these two women stopped me and were like, "OMG where'd you get that scarf?! It's sooooo pretty!" I felt special. I was like, "Oh, over there in the corner.." Not bothering to let them know it was the very last one (Please! There were like 10 different ones in other colors. So whatever. Haha). After H&M I drove over to the other mall by my house ( I live in the greatest area -- see, there are three malls within a 15 minutes of my house). I went to Forever21 my other trusty stop for any and everything me. No scarves that I liked but I found some shades. FINALLY! I had previously bought two pairs from there in like, March or something and well, they're both scratched beyond sight from my trip to Florida and throwing them in my bag like they're nothing (they really are though, I mean all Forever21's shades are like $6). They're really cute. A slight difference from my usual shade purchases but cute nonetheless. After I found the shades I walked past the headband layout on this rack and I spotted the stretchy strappy headbands. Now, see...I bought a few like, last month because I saw Aubrey from Danity Kane rocking them like it was the best thing since slice bread and Raid, on Making The Band so I figured I'd see how I'd look in some. I like them..I just felt weird wearing them in public. Then of course, I saw Janet walk out on 106 with TWO black ones on her damn head and I was like, "That's it -- tomorrow I'm so wearing mine!" Haha. So I bought a couple more at Forever and from the H&M in that mall. They're SO cute. A lot better looking than the ones I previously purchased and definately look me. So I'll be rocking them this weekend. Thanks Janet. I wonder if she knew what she'd be doing when she wrapped up that hair of hers and put on some strappy headbands? Probably not. But thanks anyways. You made me confident in my headband status. Haha. Here's a picture of my purchases:  And a close up... 
     I love you all!!!! & I appreciate the votes and love <333 (ASH THE GRAPHICS ARE EVERYTHING!) OMGosh aren't they the sweetest ever? It's basically the high school I wish I went to. Literally though, I visit that board almost everyday and even though we get on each others nerves every now and then and disagree and wanna slap somebodys mother for giving birth to them here and there -- we love each other like family! We've had more amazing times than half-assed times I must say LOL. I've been lucky to meet some of these beautiful souls in person and there really aren't any other fans like Janet's fans. I can't wait to meet more of you guys when the tour rolls through the tri-state area. Again, love you guys!!!! and THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!  This was Janet's reaction to ME when I put up the "heart" and said, "I love you, Janet!" at 106 & Park right before they did a "sit-up" segment on the show on Monday! Yes ma'am. She seen me - she loved me. Hey, girl, hey! I am soooo ovah! She gave me life in that moment. Not to mention she was ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS! As always! How can you NOT love her? Haters fall back, go to bed. You're all lost in your hater ways. LOL! Anyways -- the day was amazing. I love all you fellow Janet fans that were also out on line with me. Alex, Essence, Marcus, Inez, Matt, DenDen, Nikki, etc No other fans like Janet fans ! So much fun. <3 Also, I used the subway system by myself for the first time - ever! Honestly, how do I look? Originally a New Yorker and have been back and forth in the city like - all the time, and have never once gone on the subway by myself? Dumb stupid! So my NYer instincts kicked in for Janet and I jumped on the 2 uptown to 72nd and when I got there...Essence was nowhere to be found (she told me to meet her there) so I decided with help via my cell phone and Alex (thank you dahhling!) to place my nomad-ian (wtf, I really just made up a word!) ass to jump on the 1 downtown to 59th where I belonged. Haha. Essence was very proud. Later on I found out I was supposed to wait for her at the 72 st. station because she was coming from the BX and I assumed she was already there buuuuuuuut, she wasn't. Sorry boo. Haha. I made it though and I actually fell in love with the subway. It's hella easier than it seems. Anyways, I'm falling ill again thanks to my non-extistent immune system (what else is new? it's not really non-existent but I am ALWAYS sick so yeah...). So I'm going to drank this tea while I get hype in my room on this rainy night watching either The Velvet Rope Tour DVD or the All For You Live From Hawaii DVD....decisions, decisions.. -- I love "Would You Mind" so All For You it is. ttyl loves <3 OMG you guys! Me & my friend Carson got front floor by the mothafuckin' stage, tickets to see Janet on October 17th at the Meadowlands. :faints: FLOOR SEATS! We are RIGHT by the stage. That bitches sweat, buttons, wigs, hats, and chipped nails will be hitting us in the FACE as she pop, locks, and drops it all over New Jersey. What?! That is sickening. I am soooooooooo OVAH right now. BTW, Santagold -- if you're reading this, who is meeting up? & I don't know if tickets are selling fast. I'm assuming they are..but don't quote me on that. OH! and peep this. I ALSO got tickets to see her on 106 & Park on Monday! Carson and his friends, as well as my like, homie bff DaVon?! is coming too. You know, after being a fan since I was 4 and NEVER being able to go to any of her concerts or events due to an evil conspiracy in my household, 2008 is shaping up to be my make-up year. Thank the lord though because most know good and well this might be the last time Jan, JJ Penny from Good Times may be out for a good while. Jesus knows she needs to go pop out a chitlin or two before the dry season of eternity comes. Anywho -- I felt like bragging my jolly good news to you all. AND HOW DO YOU LIKE THE NEW LAYOUT!? Let a chick know! ;) ttyl loves. |