cntr0l //.:

Dead and a half!

X-mas card goes to the ex who come through occasionally to take care of kitty. He so nice to it he deserve a card some milk and some cookies..!

Whoever said this -- praise you. When I read this in the comment section on a blog today, I almost FELL out my chair! Woo. Thank you for that bit of laughter.

X-MAS

As I sit here at my desk, sipping on this red wine, after dinner and the opening of presents, preparing my area to make some cupcakes -- I just wanted to stop and wish everyone out there who reads my blog and all my friends and family, a very very Merry Christmas, Happy Kwanzaa, Happy Hannukah, & Happy New Year.

January of the new year will be my FOURTH year blogging and I just hope the new year brings much needed joy, happiness, luck, and experiences not just for myself but for all of you out there.

Enjoy yourselves these next couple of days and cheers, to the NEW & UNEXPECTED!

Love you all!

Sincerely,
Shannon

and by the way..

...where the hell is my prince charming? and why isn't he sweeping me off my feet right now?

:Shaking my head

<---- Duffy's "Breaking My Own Heart" Put it on and listen to it if you want to know what is going through my mind right now. I don't know why -- well, I kind of have an idea as to why but as for right this second, I have no clue as to why I am still so emotionally addicted to this certain situation. I want it to happen..sooooooooooooooooooooo bad but I know if it does -- I'm never going to get over it. And most of me, doesn't really care at all that it won't end if I keep on, keeping on with trying to get what I want, to happen.

Now, as to why I think I'm still an addict of the sort to this situation - I've never really stepped off the boat and I still feel like there is unfinished affairs that need to happen..not only for my benefit but for the other persons. --The denial and attempt to ignore what is happening, is so obvious. I mean, they've even "moved on" and still....ended up back to how we get caught up -- over and over again.

Also, I'm torn between two. This situation and the start of a new one; one a lot more promising and worthwhile. However, I still feel like I need that one last moment to push me out of this funk.

And, unfortunately, for his other party, I KNOW it'll happen...and they'll most likely, as anyone in that situation would be, devastated. They'll probably never find out if he plays it right but you never know. I personally, can't apologize for unfinished business that was started a long, long time ago.

:continues to pull hair out.

p.s. It's Christmas Eve. <3

"Halo"

Original Video - More videos at TinyPic

Awwww snap!

BOTH of Beyonce's new videos for "Diva" and "Halo" will debut on iTunes TOMORROW so get yourselves right! I know you all cannot wait!

Wee!

I'm a I'm a diva
I'm a I'm a diva
I'm a I'm a diva
Whatchu said?!
not to me..
SHE AIN'T NOO DIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVA!

Hey Hoes

Visit The Skorpion Show on YouTube. It's crack, incase you didn't notice.

Footwork

All I'm going to say is I got these on sale -- cheappppppp!

<--- Hustla'.

Obsessed Official Trailer *Updated

Hot.

Delayed Devotion

Sorry for that unfortunate delay in posting you guys -- but when things need to be handled, they need to be handled.

For future reference, I do not sit here on my laptop and write my own personal thoughts and ideas for others to re-post them elsewhere as their own. In the words of Madea, "HELL TO THE NAW..!" Cause I can & will take legal action to protect what is mine.
Don't get me wrong, if you ask me if you could use a piece I write or you would like feature it somewhere I have no problem saying, "sure!" But let me know, okay? That'd be like someone writing a book and me putting my name on the cover -- like that music video from the early 90's that put that pretty skinny girl in the video as the singer when really, it was some big lady who was actually singing, or like Milli Vanilli keeping that GRAMMY for songs they didn't even sing.
A big womp womp womp on everyone who plagiarises, willingly.

And another thing, WHY MY BLOG? Who am I? I mean, my life isn't anything sugar coated, sweet, and appealing to the eye to want to portray as your own. Trust.

Moving right along...

I WENT SHOPPING YESTERDAY!
Oh yes, it was a joyous event.
I got these really, really cute mid-calf boots, a long sleeved, over-sized black cardigan, a vintage grey leopard print shirt, and a grey and black scarf. The boots are the best though. I'm going to post pictures after I eat dinner cause I am ready to eat my brothers cat right now -- I haven't eaten in two days thanks to the odd moods my body puts me in.

I'll bb real soon children. <3

Note to SOME...or just one.

My blog and ALL of its contents, are COPYRIGHTED. So, that means if ANY
of my entries, personal pictures, etc are re-posted anywhere else --
without my knowledge and/or my permission you're going to have
problems.

K. That is all.

For those of you that this pertains to, if my content isn't removed with
~~the next FIVE days...~~

EDIT*

Make that 72 hours, according to the cease & desist letter from my copyright license.

Nothingness.

Today was a nothing-day. I did nothing.
Clearly.

---Beside cupcake that is.

I woke up to pain - popped 4 advil, went back to sleep until 2 and went to work. Back at my regular school today -- left early today (they cut our hours, le sigh). Gassed up for $14 dollars! Yes, you READ CORRECT. Gas is only $1.43 down the block from my house.

*** How much is gas by you? Because I was told Jersey has the cheapest gas on the East Coast...and I've traveled through Staten Island, Manhattan, Upstate, & Vermont and they were all ATLEAST .50 cents higher than where I live. So, let me know in the comments, puh-lease. It's killing me to find out. ***

**** AND P.S. if you come here and say your gas is $0.67 cents I will cut you, cause I KNOW you lying. ok..I won't really cut you but I need REAL answers. K thanks. ****

Back to what I was saying.....I gassed up, and got milk for mother in charge -- she made..something..some kind of contraption called dessert. It was gewd though.

What else did I do?.......hmm.. Oh! I went to Starbucks with Renata.....FINALLY! That hoe has been PLAYING me out. She has to study for her GRE's...whatever! No really, good luck Ren -- cause I don't know how to study as much as you do, clearly. Hahaha.
Anyways..

I need to go to the bank and get money out and pay my damn sidekick bill...T-Mobile is about to throw a shoe at me. :dies: Speaking of...I bought the "Diva" ringtone. So now everytime I get a text I hear..."Na na now diva is a female version of a hustla', of a, of a hustla'..." YES MA'AM! So amazing, like Kanye West said. I was stalking T-Mobile's "New & Hot" category FOREVER AND 42 DAYS for that song and FINALLY they stepped their game up. Kinda like, when Janet's album came out -- they put almost every song from the CD on there EXCEPT my anthem, your anthem, the kids anthem, the better people's of the world's anthem, "Rock With U". Three weeks later it was added. WHACK! They should hire me to chose ringtones for them -- cause Verizon clearly has NO issue adding albums to their ringtone library. I guess you get what you pay for with Broke-Mobile.

:shuts up:

I'm going to sleep now before the alien of pain erupts from my abdomen and punches me in the throat.

Nite.

do the hustle.

If I would've known how popular these charms would be, I would've started this a LONG time ago! I can't believe the response I've gotten in the past couple of days -- starting with Facebook, then my blog, and now starting this separate site.

BTW-- do people e-mail anymore? LOL All my orders have been placed through AIM & Facebook wall and messages haha. It's alright though, I don't mind people contacting me through AIM -- infact I encourage it.

Anywho -- since so many have been ordering I've decided that all orders that are placed before Christmas, will get a Christmas cupcake charm thrown in for free.

It'll be a small white sparkled cupcake with the red and green sprinkles. ;)

Now back to work!

Bush gets the BOOT ..

LITERALLY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

more cakes.

New colors and topping choices - chocolate syrup, sprinkles, glaze, glitter, and cherries (no extra charge). Also a new charm, the strawberry ($5).

Wanna be CAKIN' ?

So I was browsing Deviant last week and saw a tutorial on clay charms and I made myself a necklace with a cupcake charm. Wore it out shopping and to school and all my friends wanted one. $10 each later - I just made like $80.

Talk about a hustle. LMAO! I mean, it wasn't THAT easy...making these things is really tedious and time consuming but hey, I'm bored the rest of the hours of the day that I don't sleep or go to work so I'm occupied.

Anyway, I've decided to start a little "business" making these necklaces & bracelets. It's fun and I love creating.

Here's some more pictures of what I've currently made and what's available:

This is the assortment of colors in the large cupcake pendants so far. (more coming soon).

~~This necklace is one of a kind, I only have one like this, it includes a pendant of your choice (assortment coming soon) and two cupcake charms in the colors of your choice. $12.~~ SOLD

This is the luscious lips pendant, painted with pearlized red paint with a tint of gold and embedded with glitter on a gold chain. This is $10; you can add a small cupcake to this for $2.

The larger cupcake charms are $4 each and the smaller ones are $2 each to add to a necklace and/or bracelet.

So, for instance if you order a charm necklace (regular gold chain) with one large charm it's $8. To add anymore charms it's the previously stated prices.

Also, these prices do not include shipping. Shipping will be $3.

I will add a section to the navigation soon where you all can shop if you please.

=)

If you know anyone that would like one of these or you yourself would like one -- drop me an e-mail and you and your friends can be cakin' too.

:shivers:

WHY IS IT SO COLD?!

HELP.

"Stay 'round here long 'nuff you gon getcho self one too.."

So I just got back from the movie theater. I saw "Cadillac Records" with my mother and WOW. It was absolutely AMAZING! Everything and everyone in the film was fantastic. It was such a great movie to watch -- every actor was compelling and the music, the music! It was breathtaking. Not to mention, the story is one that everyone needs to witness be told.

Jeffrey Wright played Muddy Waters and he hands down, lived that role. He was great. I can see why my father is such a huge blues fan.

You get to see all the troubles and obstacles these people faced trying to not only make it as artists but African American artists in the 40's and 50's. Leonard Chess (played by Adrien Brody -- who was spectacular if I may add, as usual-- did some messed up things, but he got the job done and made those men & Etta, famous and the figures they are today.

Speaking of Etta, Beyonce, Beyonce, Beyonce....

.....SHE SLAYED! O-M-G you guys. When I say she improved, she moved the Earth and drained the oceans with how much she improved on her acting. She was phenomenal. I was so proud and so shocked/appalled/clutching the pearls at her performance. Etta has a mouth worse then the meanest hoodlum in Newark. Yuck! But it was totally believable; I was able, to separate the singer from the character. Maybe not entirely to Etta James, but I knew she wasn't Beyonce. There was NO way. Especially in the scenes where she almost overdoses on heroin. I didn't know Beyonce could do it or even attempt to -- but she did and I was blown away.

Y'know in Dreamgirls her acting was superb with her facial expressions and she shined when she hadn't any lines at all(we all know how hard it was to watch her in most of the scenes where she was talking...and trying to act -- girl, bye!). However, in this film she matched that ability to tell a story with her eyes with her ability to act out reality.

I've been reading reviews and critics all over are saying she stole the show and she definitely deserves an Oscar nomination for this role - whether she wins or not doesn't matter but she deserves the nomination. I couldn't agree anymore. Even the film as a whole, deserves to be up for a nomination as one of the best films of the year. And Jeffrey Wright or Adrien Brody better get a nomination in the male categories.

GO SEE THIS MOVIE ASAP!

Can I talk to you for a minute?

Why aren't more people worldly and open?

There is something about having world experience and people who are interested in things other than what they are used to. For example, I despise people who refuse to try new things simply because it's odd or different; people who are set in there ways and oppose taking risks let me ask you this..is your life THAT fulfilling that you are able to do the same thing over and over? I mean, if it is fulfilling to live that way, good for you -- but really, let me know YOUR secret.

I personally, get bored extremely easily. I absolutely hate doing the same thing all the time, eating the same foods, etc. -- routine to me, is completely dull. Which, I think has to do with my troubles in school. I hate that place and the whole idea of it. School is SO not fun and a total killjoy to me. I know I have to go to get anywhere in life but at this point -- I'll be there for life. So, whatever. Maybe some exciting, adrenaline pumping opportunity will show itself to me one of these days and I could take a break from that routine called education.

I doubt it, but I can dream.

Anyways, back to the point. Most of my friends are risk-takers and are on the same page as I am. We're pretty worldly people -- not literally, of course; times are hard we can't go anywhere our cars and three tanks of gas won't take us -- we try new things, we're pretty diverse in our hobbies and interests. Our music choices range, our tastes for different foods is a stretch and we despise sameness. We all have different styles. And that's the beauty of it -- I think we all get along because we all bring something different to the table, we come from different upbringings, different cultures, different places..and we learn from each other.

The only bad thing is, is that there are so few of them in my life haha. I mean, them being so few only makes me cherish them more for who they are, but it would be so much more enlightening to know that there were many more people out there who are just as open to different then what they're "used" to.

I plan on meeting them, wherever they may be.

cause there's beauty..

Here's my photography from Vermont:

Longest Weekend EVER

Okay, I'm back.

If this wasn't the longest weekend I've ever experienced then I honestly don't recall any others. It just felt like Sunday took FOREVER to arrive.

Friday, we (me, my mother, father, grandparents, two aunts, two uncles, my cousin, her husband, my two cousins, and my other three cousins) drove up to Vermont to stay at my aunt's ski/mountain house in Caverndish.

Let's get this straight. I do not mesh with 1. the mountains 2. the middle of nowhere and 3. extreme cold/snow. Whatdya' know? Vermont has all of the above and some moose (VT really has an obsession with the population of moose in the state, huh?)

All in all, it wasn't that bad. I don't mind visiting every...year or so. But to live there or go up (4-6 hour drive, by the friggin' way!) on the weekends? No, not at all. I'll take Montauk and fishing over that kind of trip anyday. Yeah, I really threw fishing in there.

Friday night, when we all finally got there we went up in the game room and played pool and darts (my new obsession). Darts are SO fun! My arm is sore but I SLAY! My father attempted to teach me how to play pool -- but basically, I suck really bad. Whatever I'll play darts the next time I go to a bar or billiards haha.

Saturday, my parents and I weren't in the hanging around the house for the day with everyone mood so we went on an adventure into the nearby towns. We drove to two places nearby and went browsing and I took pictures (which I will post later on) of the views and such. Got me thinking of being a Photography major or something. We had lunch at a wanna-be Pizza Hut called Chef Pizza (pizza there is so bad) and then we went into Ludlow where Okemo is ( the mountain where everyone skis and my cousins work at). We went to look for cappuccino.

NO STARBUCKS ANYWHERE!
Calm down. I know! BLASPHEMY!

After about a half hour, we went into this place Java Bamba or something and got the worst cappuccino's ever. It was like drinking hot milk with cinnamon in it. Blah.

Anywho then we went back to the house where I found my aunt upstairs playing Rock Band with my cousins and she was singing and rapping. I have her on video doing "No Sleep Til'......" by the Beastie Boys -- CLASSIC! I'll be sure to put it up haha.

Then we had dinner and played a bunch of games -- first Boggle, boo..then Pictionary me and my grandmother against my cousin and grandfather. My team won! You already know. Then we played Taboo. Me, my cousin, and her husband against my two aunts and my grandfather. We lost. I have this thing with, towards the end of the game, getting over-excited and saying one of the words I'm not supposed to blurt out. OH WELL. Don't judge me on my Taboo skills.

I'd rather be judged on my UNO skills! Cause after everyone went to sleep, I OWNED both my aunt and uncle. TWICE -- in a row. Ooh, man. It was a spectacle.

So, that was the fun part of Vermont -- playing games in the house with the family, which we could've done right here in good ol' New Jerzzzzzz. But whatever ha.

Right now though, my brain is throbbing. I have the biggest headache that the three advil I've been taking are not helping. Ahh.

ttyl
xo

P.S. Reminder to myself --- I have a gorgeous* story to tell for next time. haha.