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moonchild
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 WooHoo! This is my 402nd post! & January 22nd marks cntr0l's 4th blogaversary! So, disregard that previous repost. I noticed it was missing from my blog and have no idea why. So I got it off my backed up folder of blog entries and put it back in it's rightful place...here on my blog LOL. Anywho, that re-post...comes at a time of complete opposition to the subject matter lol. All those people, are no longer "options". Yes, 'tis true...I kept shit moving. *dusts shoulders* You can only play the game for so long and well, I got kind of fed up with ALL of their bullshit. The immaturity, the lack of life, and...so on and so forth. I would like to believe I'm worth a lot more than the low quality companionship they could ever offer me. ............I just made that one up lol. I hope it sounded okay haha. In recent months, I've come to cut those options off. And good thing. "Rich" was acting like I owed him something...what for? Your guess is better than mine. I suppose he's mad now that I don't pay him any attention anymore. Sorry, but I cannot waste my time, homie. "Larry" well...I never got back to him on the drink front. Therefore, we never hung out again and y'know....although he was nice and everything....just no. I fell out of like with him. He got super dull and the last conversation we had, he talked about some crazy sport thing..that I, clearly, had no interest in. Hence, my lack of memory on the topic. "Abe" well..he'll ALWAYS be around and I know that. Infact, we hung out once since the post. It was nice and also made me realize that he and I will never ever ever ever be. I kind of saw who he really is and as confident and amazing as I always thought he was, I realized that he's really just as insecure and, I hate to say it, crazy as any other person I'd like to punch in the mouth for just talking entirely too much about themselves and having no idea who they are in the first place. He's still a nice guy though..but..he can just stay a family friend. LOL. Which would now leave me...entirely independent and thinking solely about myself right? Wrong. Though I did enjoy a couple of weeks of "no interest in anyone" .... something kind of developed. And TRUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSST me when I say...It's not even an option yet. I mean, I hope it can become that but at the moment, we are friends. He's a nice guy, good heart from what I can tell so far, and he kind of offers everything I like. There are some set backs and if's about him that mostly have to do with a situation (jersey shhh-waah) he's currently in. All in all however, he has a good rep sheet and it doesn't hurt that he's gorgeous. lol. But you know what though? I'm just happy to have met a new friend. I am willing to give it time, and if it doesn't work out that way then fine. I'd be happy with just a friendship.....a friendship with a gorgeous friend LMAO So we'll see. You know I'll keep you updated, hardcore. ttyl loves. xoxo |