carpe diem
So as some of you may know, I used to be an avid blogger; Large and ridiculously italicized emphasis on, "USED TO BE". Then life hit me and I just fell off, trying to come back here and there and failing miserably. However, this blog has always been a treasure of mine...yes, unfortunately like most human beings, I too treat the things I love the most like shit at times. I apologize.
I've always felt I had a lot to say. And I do. Which brings me to the realization that for the past few years I've been pretty silent on a great deal of things in my life. I recognize that it's not entirely healthy to be that way. As a result, I think it kind of solidified my tendency to let things slide and become indifferent to situations throughout the past few years. I'm not very pleased with the realization, at all.
I was once a very outspoken (at almost all times), and questioning young person. Now, though it may help me to save-face, I move through things without adhering to my personal needs.
I plan to change that. Take charge. Carpe Diem.
I plan to discuss the things that bother me, blurt out the questions that are nagging me, question my own mental authority, and I plan to start off doing it here. Because honestly, it says something at low levels if you become an introvert publicly, but if you can't speak on it here, then it speaks volumes. For me personally, at least.
I was always oblivious to writing a blog and wondering what people who read it would say. I found that eventually I became aware that my writing could offend or anger some people (people who I was obviously writing about) but I know now that, that's where my truth lies. In being honest and forthcoming in my writing with not only myself but the people around me. Whether I or they like it or not.
So if you're a friend of mine or involved in my life one way or another, you will probably be mentioned eventually. If you don't like it....I honestly have nothing to tell you except, oh well. You probably didn't know me when.
But if you accept me and support me, then you deserve to know me from now on.
I look forward to all the posts to come.
Maybe even one tonight. I have a current issue that I'd like to analyze and get completely off my chest...make yourself at home.
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