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 ..and I mean that. Wholeheartedly. I've been a fan of Michael Jackson since I came out of the womb, pretty much. With that said, it was ALWAYS a given that I would go and see this movie. When tickets went on sale, I shot to the ticket website and bought two tickets for my mother and I for the midnight showing. I was extremely excited. I honestly did not know what to expect for this film. Would I see a full concert? Would I see strictly interviews with cast, crew, etc? Would I get an in depth look at Michael's creative process? Would I see a man I have never seen before? There was immense speculation surrounding this film and even before the announcement of the film, speculation was high surrounding his health and his ability. For awhile after his death, it was almost like people tried to give his passing a label, to put a reason out there for what had happened. Whatever label or reasoning people throw out there, it will never take away from the talent this man possessed and the perfect condition he was in to see his imagination come into fruition. "This Is It" proves all the skeptics wrong. Michael is strong. Michael is motivated. Michael is inspired. Michael IS, in this movie. Even posthumous, Michael raised the bar even higher. In this film you see Michael in a way, even I as a life long fan, have never seen him. He's in an element of creative overload. His ideas and thoughts just pour out onto the stage and into the crew as you watch him work towards his vision of this magical and awe-inspiring journey that was to be his stage show. When his musicians weren't sure of something, Michael immediately stopped their thought processes and almost molded the idea of a melody with his hands, right then and there. He had a way of working and enabling people to understand his creative ideas that I wished he used in his life in the light. He was seen as such a misunderstood individual and this film shatters that completely. This movie makes you understand why Michael was the way he was and why his life perplexed so many. Michael never conformed to the "norm" and though the media and the on-lookers turned away, it was the reason his craft was so untouchable and praised. Anyone of us, spoiled and soured by the spread of negativity in today's world, could never reach a level of a Michael Jackson. His naivety was his prized possession that allowed him to be the expressive and sensitive being that he was. Michael is Michael in this movie. The Michael that most fans always knew existed, but rarely ever witnessed. I imagine that Michael's closest and most trusted have seen him in his true element like in this film. He jokes with the crew, laughs, and encourages the people around him all the while being completly dedicated to his craft and perfecting his show. His balance of fun and work is so beyond what I personally, have ever seen from anyone. It's truly that of someone with the ability to see things like a child and a perfectionist would. He makes the room focused yet at ease. His encouragement of the people surrounding him is professional yet extremely personal and heartfelt. He's strict yet stands with open arms. I work ethic I myself, never knew existed. The reaction in the theater was all-embracing. The opening of the movie is quite serious and when it starts, you realize that this is about someone who is no longer with us. The saddness sets in and you feel mournful though the subject matter is that of joy and appreciation. However, when the first number starts your heart fills up and you're brought back to that place of personal experience and fun all at once when Michael starts singing. You can't help but smile at such happiness and talent that Michael embodies. I smiled throughout every number, almost as if I was there. You can't help but sing-a-long and enjoy yourself when he's performing. And when he speaks the theater is silent and concentrated on him. It's atmosphere that makes you feel like we have no idea. The thoughts and the creations Michael speaks about and expresses are like none anyone else could ever conjure up. His genius is alive and living in this film. The footage is raw and there are starts and stops, re-do's to perfect timing, lighting, etc. You see Michael before some numbers discussing his vision and expressing the feeling of specific songs to try and get the people around him to understand exactly what he wants the audience to experience. You see Michael in rehearsals with his musicians developing sounds, melodies, and creating a world around his songs. Every song has an ocean deep experience and Michael literally, drowns you in each and every layer. Michael puts more talent, genius, effort, dedication and work into this one show than today's artists put into their whole lives. The This Is It experience is something a lover of life would truly appreciate. Sitting in that theater this morning, I felt so many emotions all at once. It was a whirlwind, a huge and magical whirlwind. I was sad. I was anxious. I was amazed. I was awed. I was intrigued. I was happy. I was surprised. I was mesmerized. Then, it ends with a single shot of the King in a stance that I will never forget. And you realize, we lost the best there will ever be. Go see the movie, you won't regret it. R.I.P. Michael   Follow @GetCupCakin on Twitter, re-tweet the announcement, and e-mail CakinHustle@yahoo.com or fill out the contact form at CAKIN' to Enter!!!! Ends November 6th!!! GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!! Last weekend, Sunday morning around 2AM my friend and I left this bar we were at to go visit another friend of mine up in Morristown, New Jersey. Morristown was about an hour away from where we were and we had my blackberry ready with directions. So, I get on Route 24 West towards Morristown and we're fine, just cruising. We see an accident with a car flipped on it's side, "eek" we thought. Kept on, singing. Then we notice, there are NO lights along the highway anymore. What a dumbass thing to do...not put lights on a damn highway. However, there was someone along side of my car and behind me, so I didn't want to put my highbeams on -- incase one of the other cars passed me. The one alongside of us, passed infront a couple of times and then ended up alongside of us permanently. Now, I'm going about 55 - 60 mph. The speed limit is 55 and of course, the asshole behind me is like, in my damn backseat..but do I care? NO. It's only HIS problem if he rear ends me, cause that insurance company of his will write me a pleasant check. Anywho, the car alongside of me is maybe 100 ft ahead and all of a sudden it swerves and we're like "WTF" and then PA DOW!  THIS stupid ass decided to jump into traffic (sometime before we came across him), get hit and die in between two lanes. I was driving in the left lane and this highway had three lanes. This deer was taking up the two left lanes and by the time he showed up in my headlights, it was too late and my beautiful, poor love bug just PLOWED over the prince of the forest. My friend was in the car, screaming like I had ran over a human. I was like ZOMG!!!!!! Got real calm, slowed the car down and pulled over to the left shoulder. Apparently, asshole behind me hit what was left of the deer after I plowed over his ass..but, he kept it moving and didn't stop. Me on the other hand, my car was smoking, the oil light came on, and the off-roading light came on LOL. It was like the rollercoaster ride from Hell. My car literally flew once I hit that stupid ass deer. I mean..it was the biggest deer I ever did see. Like this type of size:  Like what the hell? You figure a deer this big is supposed to be smart and wise and all that jazz..but no. His ego told him to jump into the road and just trash my car and my night. SMH! So all this week, my father has been going back and forth with the insurance company. I have collision AND comprehesive..so all I have to pay is my low rate deductable. However, these stupid ass people take me for a FOOL! My car is new. There's nothing wrong with it, I drive it back and forth to school, work, and drove it to Long Island 4 times. It only has 24,000 miles and they want to put USED parts in it. NO MA'AM! Sorry, but I was NOT born yesterday..I pay good money, every month for that car. It's never had an issue...and the cheap ass insurance company is NOT going to make some for me. I'll be damned if they put 2004 parts in an '07. Here's the list of known damage from their first look: The AC unit fell out/cracked and all the lines connecting it are broke The radiator is broken The oil pan -- ce la vie and my bumper...that deer head cracked it clear in HALF. According to the insurance adjuster and auto shop supplied by Volkswagen, there is a lot more damage underneath those things -- giving me a grand total of over $7000 worth of damage. If they don't fix it right, then...it may be a difficult emotional move for me, but they might as well total my car and write me a damn check for $16-17,000 so I can go and buy me a new one. I do not have time for the run around with these lame people. Atleast, with a check I can just get me another car and keep my life moving. However, let us all pray that things go right and these lame ass people DO THE RIGHT THING and just fix my baby the correct way she deserves.  <3 love bug
You may be asking yourself, "what the hell is TVR therapy?" Well, good thing you asked cause that is what this post is going to be about. TVR = The Velvet Rope , a CD-- a masterpiece is more suitable, that Janet Jackson released in 1997. You're all probably like, this chick is crazy over Janet. Though that may be, it's for all the right reasons. Y'know I shared a YouTube video of hers on Facebook and someone commented and said, "I see you're obsessed with Janet Jackson.." and I thought about it and I think it's unfair and illogical to make that sort of judgment. It's more so a connection than an obsession. I hear obsession and think of all the screaming girls across the world who break the law and would hurt a small child to see the Jonas Brothers or someone. That, my friends, I do not do lol. Sure, I've seen her in concert and have gone to television shows to see her but that's only because I am spoiled and live 20 minutes away from Manhattan and can do that occasionally lol. If you had the access, you'd do it too. But not to discredit my fandom in anyway, shape, or form..I do have a strong sense of relation to Janet. No, I don't feel like we're kindred souls or that we were friends in a past life -- I just feel her life. Her music is extremely personal to her and what is going on in her life when she is making her albums -- so as a listener, you can easily decipher from one album to the next, how she was feeling and what she was going through. Even in an industry now, in which every song is about the same thing -- preaching materialism and the craziness of relations, she's still an artist that makes albums. Although, to be completely honest..20Y.O. (2006) wasn't much of anything (besides With U, Enjoy, & Take Care.....) but I can let that one slide (entirely my opinion lol). Anywho, Janet released The Velvet Rope in 1997 after a great deal of turmoil in her personal life; Dealing with depression and supressed feelings she had through-out her life up until that point, all contributed to this album. It's very much about finding one's self: escapism, accepting what is, experimenting, sexuality, the need we all have as humans to feel needed, to feel special, to feel like we mean something to someone. The album is cohesive and deeply introspective for her and for the listener. I remember first listening to it, at 8 or 9 years old being in complete awe and thinking, "Wow.." Now of course, at that age I didn't quite understand all the content but I had a sense of what was going on. Growing up, I myself was a quiet child and internalized a great deal and the constant talk of this "need to feel special" on the album really pulled me in, I related. I started listening to the album on a daily basis -- a couple songs here and there, or one song a day; depending on my mood and what I needed, the tracks varied. When I got into high school though, I found myself listening to the entire album on repeat, for days. It was a healing for me -- as looney as that sounds -- relaxing and clearing my head to this album put me into a better space after a couple of days. Now, it's almost a tradition or a "quirk" about myself that is just stuck in me. I go through a period of time where I just have to listen to this album, and that's it. It really does help. The connection is so strong with this work and it still to this day amazes me how much the music and the words, the message...gets through. I mean the delivery on this CD is so strong and so direct -- you cannot not feel it. This CD could have been released today, and still have the same level of resonance within people as it did, the day it dropped in October '97. There's a level of vulnerability on this album that is breathtaking to me. To be so set in your ways and to open yourself up and expose what you're going through and take your listeners with you as you fix yourself..? That's courage. And it's inspiring. To know, that even she is in this journey with the rest of us. Not only did the music touch me, but Janet did as well. If someone didn't have respect for her after Control or Rhythm Nation or the janet. album...they definitely were able to see one of the best sides of Jan through this album. I say that with the utmost sincerity in that, no, I don't feel like it takes pain or troubled times to make a masterpiece, but it does take a TRUE artist to manifest something that could have easily ruined her, and turn it into self conducted therapy not only for herself but for the people with open ears; whoever will listen. This album is an open invitation to anyone who needs to know that the complexities of life effect everyone. I find so much strength when the album is over and it's just overwhelmingly uplifting. So, two weeks ago..I found myself feeling inadequate; different issues resurfaced, questions arose, I felt alone, and I just popped in the CD and the first night I laid in bed and just thought about every lyric. I fell asleep before the album finished, but I did the same thing the next night and the night after. It kind of put me in a better mood to wake up the next day with...and by the time I was ready to lay in bed the next day--I needed the CD again. After the some time...it clicks all over again. And no I'm not crazy -- it never really is the same thing that pops up and has me running for the CD -- it could be anything that is challenging me in life. I find that inner strength through this CD -- it's true. It's my shrink, so to speak. Instead of the $300 a week for a couch and a notepad..I spent $10 for a CD that I've listened to for the past 12 years. So next time, my connection is questioned...I'll just send a link to this post. ;) Thank you, Janet.
 She is BACK! My favorite person in the world is BACK! Janet has spoken! She expresses her feelings about her late brother, Michael, she's NEWLY (and finally - no offense JD) single, and her future plans. But mostly Michael. The article is elegant and heartfelt. She's really back to the great old Janet I always loved. It's a good read! Head over now and check her out!! MSparklessssss Ends Friday August 28th at Midnight EST Good Luck!!!
Shannon Shannon My favorite part! <3 It was hands down, the best show I've ever seen. Pictures coming as well! :dies As you can tell, the death of Michael Jackson hit me hard and knocked everything I've been wanting to post, to the ground. So, I'm going to attempt to roll everything that has been going on into this post. Let's see..what's been up? A great deal of family time and beach time. Had my cousins HS graduation party the 27th, that was nice. We all did the usual, talk and eat everything lol. That following Monday, my other cousin Jenn had her birthday and all the aunts and female cousins went over and hung out for the afternoon. It was fun. My cousin April had little Victoria there -- she's such a doll. Love her. She's so big already! I mean, for 5 months she's small but she was a premie so compared to the 4lbs she was, she so big now. lol. As for the 4th of July, we were out in Long Island from the 2nd to the 5th. I FINALLY got a tan. Thank you Jesus. I was a bit ghostly for a good while there but now I'm at my regular olive/chestnut color. See when I tan during the summer, it doesn't completely fade til about March the following year. I, oddly, keep my color for a long period of time. But this year it was more noticeable because the weather has been so schizophrenic, cold, raining, hot, cold, pouring for 26 days out of the month of June (WTF!)..and I'm used to getting a tan by May. Didn't happen this year. So I been so mad. LOL. Other than spending three days on the beach and seeing a great fireworks show in Montauk, my 4th was great. OH AND BTW, if anyone is ever out in Long Island in the far east end of the Hamptons, I recommend a visit to Dave's Bar & Grill. AMAZING food. omg. I'm not a big eater of seafood but I had their surf & turf special on Sunday. It was orgasmic. It was lobster out of the shell that was poached in BUTTER with a 8oz sirloin in peppercorn sauce with creamed spinach and crisy fries. I could've DIED. SO GOOD. Expensive, but sooooooooo worth it. It think the plate itself was $38 but for that succulent lobster..I'd pay $50. I've only eaten lobster twice before and that was both in Cozumel, Mexico because they too had taken the lobster out of the shell and it was covered in butter ( and the lobster down there is sweeter, no claws, different kind). So coming from me, ITS AMAZING. LOL. I cringe at the thought of cracking open the shell and pulling out all the meat and everything and anything else that may be in there. It just makes me lose my appetite so if you too hate all that, visit Dave's. LOL. Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd, my BIRTHDAY is coming upppp! Yes, yes...14 more days (JULY 22nd) til' I am finally 21. I know everyone is like, "oh 21 is overrated.." I know it is. But I'm happy that I will finally have the option to go out whenever I feel like it. Because I usually don't go out unless I know someone at the places I go to..and that's always a pain in the ass. Forget the whole drinking thing..I drink already..to everyone, including family, 18,19, and 20 is no different than 21. LOL. I will just be so relieved that I won't have to schedule these 007 missions to get into places. Ugh - I have to go. That's it, for now. <3 
 It was the perfect way to show such a man, such love and respect with class and dignity. Love & Respect he should've gotten ALL the time here on Earth. May God bless him and his children. It finally hit me when Michael's gorgeous 11 year-old daughter Paris, spoke those simple, yet strong words about her Daddy and how much she loved him -- that it finally hit me that he is really, really gone. This is real and we all need to realize how much of a GIFT Michael was to us. To be able to live to see him in action and embrace his craft, and watch him shine before our eyes as he made HIStory.
We were truly the lucky ones. Thank you, Michael.. For everything. Rest In Peace <3 <3 <3 Two more are in the works. Enjoy.    stay tuned..
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As she said, Michael lives on forever in our hearts.  I refuse to believe this is all real. I never ever imagined that, at 21..I'd hear about the death of Michael Jackson. I thought my future children would be able to see him...maybe even performing or releasing new music. Now..it's just unfathomable that it won't happen. He's gone..forever. R.I.P. Michael <3You know..I've been crying a little here and there. It was weird because I was actually vacuuming that afternoon (eastcoast time) and I had to stop. I had really, really bad heartburn and decided to sit down and have a glass of water before continuing. Well, I never finished vacuuming until today. I went out of my way to go in my car and get my sidekick I had left in there the night before. When I got it, I checked Twitter to see what was going on with my followers. I kept seeing "Police Called To MJ's House" "Ambulance Rushed To Michael Jackson's Home". I ran into the house and hit the computer. I followed minute by minute;l I watched them pull out of his driveway and all the comotion around UCLA. Then I saw TMZ -- Michael Jackson Dead. I slouched and hit the back of my chair and had to breathe. "No, this is such a lie. Michael cannot be dead. Not Michael and TMZ is definitely not the place to hear it!" So, I watched everyone type in how only TMZ is stating this, not CNN, etc. Slowly, but surely, the rest of the media outlets followed. Then I saw the LA Times website. Pop Superstar Michael Jackson Dead at 50. Then CNN followed awhile later. I took a moment...posted my thoughts and then decided to take a shower. There, I cried and cried and cried. I just couldn't take it. Then on the way to my aunts house today, I heard all the tributes on the radio. One of the stations started playing "Man In The Mirror" and I broke down. It just hit me like a brick. I was so engulfed with sadness. This man was my childhood. From the age of 3 to now, it's always been Michael Jackson. Just this past Tuesday, my mother and I were listening to the Thriller album on the home from Target...singing loud in the car, having the times of our lives. We listened to him on the way home from Long Island Sunday night. We listened to "Off The Wall", "Invincible", and "Dangerous". It just doesn't feel right or real. I honestly, don't know a world without Michael. I know that sounds crazy coming from someone who has never met him or ever seen him in person (even though I almost did in 2001 at Virgin Records, too many people = too much for a 13 year old me) but Michael really shaped my early years and gave me so many memories to his music that I will never forget, ever. Memories with family -- I remember my brother being obsessed with trying to mimic Michael's moves, sliding on our old kitchen floor with our socks trying to spin and do the moonwalk, sliding in the hallways, watching the weekend Michael marathons on MTV with my brother, hearing stories from my father about Michael's concerts. So, so, so much this man has given me and my family. It's just hard to grasp the fact that the world is forever missing it's King. I'm privileged to own his entire discography...I'll never forget Him. And I can promise, my children will know Him, his music, and his message. Now excuse me, while I continue to attempt to deal with this. :turns on iPod: Today is a horrible, horrible day... All my prayers and love go out to the Jackson family. I honestly, feel like I lost my father, a brother, or an uncle. I can't even express the amount of pain I feel in my heart right now. He is said to have suffered cardiac arrest and is now passed on at the age of 50. I can't really grasp this...at all. Michael has always been a figure that I've looked at as one of those people who will "live forever" almost. Like he was more than just a singer to so many, including myself. However, his absense in the industry since 2001, has almost prepared me for something like this. I have grown accustomed to not hearing new music for the past 8 years that going back in my iPod and taking out those albums is almost how I have been going back to Michael. How I feel his life. And now, even though he has passed -- it doesn't feel like he's gone. I know he's gone, but as I turn on his music...it's like he's right here. And I am soo soo grateful for his body of work...that it can have that affect on me even after his life has transpired. Almost every memory I can remember of him is going through my mind right now. MTV Michael Jackson weekends, all the videos, the movies, the video game!, oprah interview...everything. God..it's just entirely too sad. Michael, you'll live forever through your music and the profound effect you've had on us all. You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson R.I.P. MICHAEL JOSEPH JACKSON "THE KING OF POP" 1958-2009     You're finally free. ...Always in my heart <3
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